I am so hurt right now
So I look outside and there's a new pretty ass car that I immediately love at first sight. I am thinking NO WAY....they got me a car!? So I go downstairs and ask if we're going to buy it..my dad said he already did...and it's Anthonys. I'm thinking they've got to be joking, but they never said..jk. I said can I drive it around a bit...and he said ask Anthony. I was like omg they HAVE to be kidding. He's not even 16 yet, doesn't even have his license. So I drove with Anth in the passenger...went to show it off to his friend...got home... his friends come over to see it while I'm getting the table set for dinner. My parents try and tell me I shouldnt be jealous because it's a used car, 1999 Audi A6...less miles than my jeep and not that much more than they paid for my jeep. I'm just like omg its beautiful and looks, feels, and drives new. Whatever.
The fact is I've been asking for a car for forever. I am older...and have been driving longer...its not fair.
So then Anth comes in and is bragging about it... and how he's goin to name it Crystal because of the color...its silverish, white. My mom says he's so gay jokingly... and turns to me to say you should make your car more girly Kara... I couldn't hold it back anymore... I was just like ITS NOT GIRLY...Its a JEEP.... A GREEN JEEP! I'm about to walk upstairs...and my dad goes...Kara you want a car? (and all I think is..ok so he's givin me a bone here..finally) and I go..yeah. He goes...well why dont you get a fulltime job and save. And try cleaning your room ... and I just couldnt contain myself I yelled.. IT IS CLEAN!!!!! and he goes what was that for...I said BECAUSE YOU'RE AN ASSHOLE! I ran upstairs before I knew if he was gonna run after me or not....and he goes...see if that gets you a car.
I give up really.
I need some of Larry and Anthony's genes. I didnt get anything for xmas or my birthday...I dont get a good phone like larry or anthony, I dont get a car...its just not fair.
before you say I'm spoiled and a brat and ungrateful know that my parents love with their money.
I am never good enough...and just because I'm not in school and I took a not even a month break from having a job...I am evil and don't deserve shit. I'm now applying..whatever. But still..
Anthony is a gift from god perfect child...top grades, bodybuilding athlete, popular, in school suck up brat. Larry was the same way... I can't compete...I'll never be good enough.
It just feels like I'm not part of the family. I'm being pushed away because I'm a disgrace. IT hurts. They honestly think I'm nothing to the world...I'm nothing but a disappointment, mistake and I just suck at life. How can I prove I'm more....even if I get a job...I'm not in school.
And the ONLY reason they've pushed me SO hard while I was on break recuperating from the job I had...is because they want me away from them...they don't want me here. They want me out. They think that because I'm working I silently agreed that I'm an adult...that I don't need their help or support anymore...that they're not my parents. I just don't understand. I just give up.
and I just cant stop crying.
The fact is I've been asking for a car for forever. I am older...and have been driving longer...its not fair.
So then Anth comes in and is bragging about it... and how he's goin to name it Crystal because of the color...its silverish, white. My mom says he's so gay jokingly... and turns to me to say you should make your car more girly Kara... I couldn't hold it back anymore... I was just like ITS NOT GIRLY...Its a JEEP.... A GREEN JEEP! I'm about to walk upstairs...and my dad goes...Kara you want a car? (and all I think is..ok so he's givin me a bone here..finally) and I go..yeah. He goes...well why dont you get a fulltime job and save. And try cleaning your room ... and I just couldnt contain myself I yelled.. IT IS CLEAN!!!!! and he goes what was that for...I said BECAUSE YOU'RE AN ASSHOLE! I ran upstairs before I knew if he was gonna run after me or not....and he goes...see if that gets you a car.
I give up really.
I need some of Larry and Anthony's genes. I didnt get anything for xmas or my birthday...I dont get a good phone like larry or anthony, I dont get a car...its just not fair.
before you say I'm spoiled and a brat and ungrateful know that my parents love with their money.
I am never good enough...and just because I'm not in school and I took a not even a month break from having a job...I am evil and don't deserve shit. I'm now applying..whatever. But still..
Anthony is a gift from god perfect child...top grades, bodybuilding athlete, popular, in school suck up brat. Larry was the same way... I can't compete...I'll never be good enough.
It just feels like I'm not part of the family. I'm being pushed away because I'm a disgrace. IT hurts. They honestly think I'm nothing to the world...I'm nothing but a disappointment, mistake and I just suck at life. How can I prove I'm more....even if I get a job...I'm not in school.
And the ONLY reason they've pushed me SO hard while I was on break recuperating from the job I had...is because they want me away from them...they don't want me here. They want me out. They think that because I'm working I silently agreed that I'm an adult...that I don't need their help or support anymore...that they're not my parents. I just don't understand. I just give up.
and I just cant stop crying.