FUCKING STRESS!
Aren't parents sopposed to be there for you? I mean, isnt there this unsaid line, that at this point in your childs life, support them no matter how they have acted? Why cant my dad be like that. Why does my dad have to be the heartless creature he is acting like? I have this report that was due today (reason I missed school) but I could not, for the life of me, print it out. So I walked to the BCC Libarary, and I had no money in which to work with to print out, so I came home, and asked my dad. He goes "Maybe." I need to turn this report in, in order to graduate. HE knows this, but doesnt care. I moved to leave, and was like "Dont you give a damn?" He goes: "I havent given a damn in years." I moved to open the door and close it, and he gave me the evil crouch and pointing finger and said, "You taught me this attuide." I slammed the door and walked out. I want to move. So so sooooooo bad. Why does my dad have to be such a prick? I mean, i know i am a bitch at times, and show no respect, by how am I posed to change who I am? I am fucking 18. I cant change who I am over night, I am trying so hard, but WHAT THE FUCK AM I SOPPOSED TO DO!! This is the shit that drives people to want to die, if I didnt believe sucide was a sin I would so fucking slice my wrists right now. My eyes are welling up with tears, and im shaking horribly, and my head is pounding, and all I want is to be understood. My fucking father doesnt know how to that. Yeah, I show no respect. yeah, I give attuide. Duh. FIrst of all, i am still an adolscent no matter the age. I am in my late teens, got two years till im 20. I AM A TEENAGER!! WHAT THE FUCK AM I SOPOOSED TO DO!! I just cant deal with this stress. It is fucking bullshit if you ask me. It is all fucking bullshit. I cant do this. My life with my dad is horrible. I have lacked in my chores, because well... FUCKING WHY SHOULD I DO THOSE FUCKING CHORES WHEN HE WONT FUCKING LET ME ON HIS OWN FUCKING CPMPUTER SO I CAM FUCKING GRADUATE FINALLY. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH HIM!! I swear to god, he makes me want to die. Right this second, all I wanna do is kill myself, because this shit is fucking wrong to the maxium... fucking fucking fucking FUCK!