Today and tomorrow defest will rise
Ugh... I hate being a female some times. I mean, you have to shave your legs, and under arms, and by some popular belif you have to trim/shave your pubic hair as well.. what if your hand twitches... can you say ow? And dont forget about periods... ugh ew ugh ew ow ugh ew owwwwie
I roleplay in this KCS place, which is a room I absolutly love... but I'm feeling a bit... I dont know how to describe it. We have this inactive list going now, and I get put on it for my vampire and panther. I understand the vampire... but my panther I can only play with like three people. Two of those people, rather rp with themselves then have me interfere half the time... and I understand that, it doesnt bother me.. or well it does, but I refuse to let it eat me up inside. It's roleplay, they wanna do all that mushy lovey dovey bullshit, power to them. I never really rp with them as it is, so it isnt as if I am so hooked on it -shurgs some- but anyway... I get put on this list, when I roleplay Anna more then this chick, Nikki roleplays her Cherish, and yet she isnt on there? Or what about The Rock, a.k.a the chars name Domink? I dont see those two persona's on the list, when I am so obviously on it. In a sense, I just maybe am over reacting. Oh, get this... I wanted to roleplay with these two people I 'usually' consider my friends... so I went to PW with one, and was like, 'hey, mind if I bring in Anna?'... it isnt fair to ME, that I can only play her with three people. Shane, Ariel, Cherish. Only panthers in the room really... its hard on ME. Nikki is to into her vampire, and the other two are too into each other... what I think I am gonna do is turn her back into an NPC, and give someone else the persona. I am sick of that stuff... if I am put on the inactive list for not playing her, then I need to play her... yet how can I play her, if I have no one to play her with? I suddenly get into a mixture of ties that seem so knotted i am fucked every which way to sunday and then till kingdom come... she said no. Or no, she didnt say no, she was like... basically saying dont, she wanted to rp with the char's mate alone. Again, whatever. It is roleplay, nothing serious... I have roleplayed once in the past three days. I cant figure out if this is a good sign, or a bad one. It either means I am getting bored, I dont have anyone TO roleplay with, or that I am just not as addicted as I once was... which all of these could be a good.... VERY good thing. I play in this place called Miami Dreams... eh, nuff said...
School is ok... I have a D in Econmics, a C+ in Phycolgy AP, an 'A' in Drama, and a D in English three... i finally got out of english III, and now I am in my 9 weeks I need for Gym... ugh. This is what I get for not taking it all these other years... then I need to get English II... only the last 9 weeks though, because I moved during that time and never made it up -slaps wrist- Met this other Senior in Gym... we were put in a class with ONLY freshmen... we are sooo clinging together!! She seem's cool so far, just came down here from New York not to long ago, and seems to be hestiant about making friends... tomorrow is black&white day. I have my outfit planned. A black skirt (or black slacks if i get too... antsy) and a white shirt, white socks, and my black thick heels that I wear for any outfit (in jeans they make me feel like a cowgirl)then the next day is class color day, so I gotta support my class and wear blue (ironic, the color i dislike the most is the one i 'pose to wear for my "Senior Pride")
I woke up this morning with a bad ass headache... and went to school anyway...I was sitting at the benchs, and my friend raised her voice EXTERMLY loudly... and I winced, and then she did it again, and in my head, it sounded as if drums were resounding, so I was like, lower you voice, please... damn. She goes "No, I dont have too..." and I was like, "well you should because I have a headache..." she goes "shoul have thought about that before..." I go, "Fuck, you. You should have consideration for your fucking friends..." She said something, (I dont remember) and I just stood up, and turned and walked away, saying fuck... something something fuck... I turned around and said, 'yeah, well I fucking hope you fucking die...' and walked inside the school. I felt bad later... but my head was KILLING me... we made up in third hour, lol. I think anyway... but... I guess the main lesson today was... even though some people online, I care about as if I could hug and hold them here and now... dont let yourself get to caught up,. because they dont live close enough for that.. and to think before you speak and TRY AND PASS ALL YOUR CLASSES!! Grr! That's all I guess... Viola! My day in a semi-salt-shaker...
OH! I was giving free massages out to people in third hour... lol, and getting them. Was a riot.
Adious muchachos
I roleplay in this KCS place, which is a room I absolutly love... but I'm feeling a bit... I dont know how to describe it. We have this inactive list going now, and I get put on it for my vampire and panther. I understand the vampire... but my panther I can only play with like three people. Two of those people, rather rp with themselves then have me interfere half the time... and I understand that, it doesnt bother me.. or well it does, but I refuse to let it eat me up inside. It's roleplay, they wanna do all that mushy lovey dovey bullshit, power to them. I never really rp with them as it is, so it isnt as if I am so hooked on it -shurgs some- but anyway... I get put on this list, when I roleplay Anna more then this chick, Nikki roleplays her Cherish, and yet she isnt on there? Or what about The Rock, a.k.a the chars name Domink? I dont see those two persona's on the list, when I am so obviously on it. In a sense, I just maybe am over reacting. Oh, get this... I wanted to roleplay with these two people I 'usually' consider my friends... so I went to PW with one, and was like, 'hey, mind if I bring in Anna?'... it isnt fair to ME, that I can only play her with three people. Shane, Ariel, Cherish. Only panthers in the room really... its hard on ME. Nikki is to into her vampire, and the other two are too into each other... what I think I am gonna do is turn her back into an NPC, and give someone else the persona. I am sick of that stuff... if I am put on the inactive list for not playing her, then I need to play her... yet how can I play her, if I have no one to play her with? I suddenly get into a mixture of ties that seem so knotted i am fucked every which way to sunday and then till kingdom come... she said no. Or no, she didnt say no, she was like... basically saying dont, she wanted to rp with the char's mate alone. Again, whatever. It is roleplay, nothing serious... I have roleplayed once in the past three days. I cant figure out if this is a good sign, or a bad one. It either means I am getting bored, I dont have anyone TO roleplay with, or that I am just not as addicted as I once was... which all of these could be a good.... VERY good thing. I play in this place called Miami Dreams... eh, nuff said...
School is ok... I have a D in Econmics, a C+ in Phycolgy AP, an 'A' in Drama, and a D in English three... i finally got out of english III, and now I am in my 9 weeks I need for Gym... ugh. This is what I get for not taking it all these other years... then I need to get English II... only the last 9 weeks though, because I moved during that time and never made it up -slaps wrist- Met this other Senior in Gym... we were put in a class with ONLY freshmen... we are sooo clinging together!! She seem's cool so far, just came down here from New York not to long ago, and seems to be hestiant about making friends... tomorrow is black&white day. I have my outfit planned. A black skirt (or black slacks if i get too... antsy) and a white shirt, white socks, and my black thick heels that I wear for any outfit (in jeans they make me feel like a cowgirl)then the next day is class color day, so I gotta support my class and wear blue (ironic, the color i dislike the most is the one i 'pose to wear for my "Senior Pride")
I woke up this morning with a bad ass headache... and went to school anyway...I was sitting at the benchs, and my friend raised her voice EXTERMLY loudly... and I winced, and then she did it again, and in my head, it sounded as if drums were resounding, so I was like, lower you voice, please... damn. She goes "No, I dont have too..." and I was like, "well you should because I have a headache..." she goes "shoul have thought about that before..." I go, "Fuck, you. You should have consideration for your fucking friends..." She said something, (I dont remember) and I just stood up, and turned and walked away, saying fuck... something something fuck... I turned around and said, 'yeah, well I fucking hope you fucking die...' and walked inside the school. I felt bad later... but my head was KILLING me... we made up in third hour, lol. I think anyway... but... I guess the main lesson today was... even though some people online, I care about as if I could hug and hold them here and now... dont let yourself get to caught up,. because they dont live close enough for that.. and to think before you speak and TRY AND PASS ALL YOUR CLASSES!! Grr! That's all I guess... Viola! My day in a semi-salt-shaker...
OH! I was giving free massages out to people in third hour... lol, and getting them. Was a riot.
Adious muchachos