Family dinner... of a sort.
I suppose a brief recap of the whole L and me thing would be useful. So, we were dating, then in a relationship as girlfriends. Then we were starting to build our own odd and dysfunctional family. (The Kid would introduce me to some people as his step-mom.) But, L isn't really a lesbian, so we decided we'd be friends. Except of course, she is the love of my life, so I was trying to be all "friends" and for a couple months just lived in denial hoping that eventually she would change her mind and we could go back to being a family. Then around Thanksgiving it finally really sunk in that she will never be my wife. And that was sad. We've had several discussions between us (me and L and the Kid) about our feelings and what is most important to us. And now we are getting settled into our family. Because, that's what we are, as it turns out. A really bizarre family, but a good one I think. L is the more reserved, calmer influence, most of the time. I am the loud, outlandish one that still kinda flirts with L. And the Kid is her son and my quasi step-son who is in that "emo-teenage-to-adult-transition-is-hard" stage, which exhausts us both. I point out good looking men to L. And The Kid and I compare notes on girls. And Thank God - he still tells me literally everything. And we do dinner and shopping and just watching TV and we all benefit from the closeness of each other. So, it's not what other people might call normal, but it fits us perfectly.
Now, with the set-up completed, we are all going up to my parents' for Christmas. We have Friday off, so we are going up after work on Thursday. Mom has gone crazy getting dinner menus planned and trying to contain the thrill of having a boy in the house to dote on, if only for a couple days. I volunteered L and I to share the big bed, but that was nixed by both mom and L, so we get the twin beds and the Kid gets the real bed. Maybe next year. ; )
But, since we will be out of town, it was decided that L and the Kid would exchange gifts with L's mom tonight. So they were going out to dinner. And my almost was mother-in-law told L that it would be nice if I came. So, I did. And we had a really lovely evening over Chinese. I enjoyed myself quite a bit. We thought it would be nice to get together for breakfast after the holidays, which I'm looking forward to. And not just because I love waffles. I feel included in family things. And that makes this whole new relationship more real.
It's not what I thought I wanted. And it isn't near what I hoped for. But, it really is the best for all of us. So, for the first time in ages I am really looking forward to Christmas. Christmas with all my family.
Hope you all have wonderful holidays, whatever they may be.
Now, with the set-up completed, we are all going up to my parents' for Christmas. We have Friday off, so we are going up after work on Thursday. Mom has gone crazy getting dinner menus planned and trying to contain the thrill of having a boy in the house to dote on, if only for a couple days. I volunteered L and I to share the big bed, but that was nixed by both mom and L, so we get the twin beds and the Kid gets the real bed. Maybe next year. ; )
But, since we will be out of town, it was decided that L and the Kid would exchange gifts with L's mom tonight. So they were going out to dinner. And my almost was mother-in-law told L that it would be nice if I came. So, I did. And we had a really lovely evening over Chinese. I enjoyed myself quite a bit. We thought it would be nice to get together for breakfast after the holidays, which I'm looking forward to. And not just because I love waffles. I feel included in family things. And that makes this whole new relationship more real.
It's not what I thought I wanted. And it isn't near what I hoped for. But, it really is the best for all of us. So, for the first time in ages I am really looking forward to Christmas. Christmas with all my family.
Hope you all have wonderful holidays, whatever they may be.