memory lanes
so going through old facebook pictures right?
I come across this old picture, in said picture I am with someone who meant(means) a lot to me, but after certain events that happened that night, said person and I have not had a real conversation since then. infact I maybe have seen that person twice since that night???
(cryptic i know but bear with me)
anyways I miss that person terribly,hes the only person from that time in life I dont speak to anymore, and looking at that picture In my mind it represents everything I used to be because of the time frame. In those few weeks surrounding the photo I lost a lot of people. Its actually safe to say I lost my whole life. My entire life changed at that time.
I had four people I considered myself closest to.
One I had already began to lose
Then I lost another one
I got "dumped" I guess for lack of a better term the next day.
I lost the last 2 of the 4 soon after.
(and as a result of these, everyone else kinda slipped away too slowly for one reason or another)
Needless to say I spent the rest of that summer very sad and confused. I was watching my teenage years fall apart in front of me and I could not do anything to stop it (at least so I thought at the time)
But
Then one day at my job I saw a new cute little skinny guy, I had a little crush so I creeped on him till I got his attention lol. we started being friends then a few weeks later there is a shooting at albertsons and I cannot move my car from the crime scene, so he comes pick me up and brings me to celebrity where I meet 3 of his closest friends, and after that night my life changed forever.
I fell head over heels for a crazy awesome group of kids who accepted me for who i am, they have stuck by me through a lot of crap, and not just the first 3, but the other wonderful people who stemmed from the 3. No matter whats gone on at any given point theres nothing i wouldnt do for these kids and im pretty sure they would all be there for me if i called. :D
point is.
Life change is scary.
God had a plan the whole time, he didnt leave me all alone.
You cant always see whats coming up, and you wont know until you get there.
Just trust God and you will be fine.
:D
I searched this scripture cause it was my point:
Romans 8:28 And we know that all things work together for good for them who love him and have been called according to his purpose
but honestly I felt that this hit home more:
Romans 8:32 He who did not spare his own Son but gave him up for us all, how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things??
Thats really how I feel, There was no reason besides love to give us what he gave us. Forgiveness, but also every day he takes care of us!!!! He gives us everything we need plus more cause he loves us that much. No matter what bad things have happened in my life I've never been alone and I've never been hopeless.
(and thankfully, even though all 4 of those friendships ended badly at the time I am on speaking terms and still care about all those people very much, and all of them seem to be happy :D)
(funny how this entry started as me being sad about the one person from my past I dont talk to anymore and it would up all rambly :end super scattered entry:)
I come across this old picture, in said picture I am with someone who meant(means) a lot to me, but after certain events that happened that night, said person and I have not had a real conversation since then. infact I maybe have seen that person twice since that night???
(cryptic i know but bear with me)
anyways I miss that person terribly,hes the only person from that time in life I dont speak to anymore, and looking at that picture In my mind it represents everything I used to be because of the time frame. In those few weeks surrounding the photo I lost a lot of people. Its actually safe to say I lost my whole life. My entire life changed at that time.
I had four people I considered myself closest to.
One I had already began to lose
Then I lost another one
I got "dumped" I guess for lack of a better term the next day.
I lost the last 2 of the 4 soon after.
(and as a result of these, everyone else kinda slipped away too slowly for one reason or another)
Needless to say I spent the rest of that summer very sad and confused. I was watching my teenage years fall apart in front of me and I could not do anything to stop it (at least so I thought at the time)
But
Then one day at my job I saw a new cute little skinny guy, I had a little crush so I creeped on him till I got his attention lol. we started being friends then a few weeks later there is a shooting at albertsons and I cannot move my car from the crime scene, so he comes pick me up and brings me to celebrity where I meet 3 of his closest friends, and after that night my life changed forever.
I fell head over heels for a crazy awesome group of kids who accepted me for who i am, they have stuck by me through a lot of crap, and not just the first 3, but the other wonderful people who stemmed from the 3. No matter whats gone on at any given point theres nothing i wouldnt do for these kids and im pretty sure they would all be there for me if i called. :D
point is.
Life change is scary.
God had a plan the whole time, he didnt leave me all alone.
You cant always see whats coming up, and you wont know until you get there.
Just trust God and you will be fine.
:D
I searched this scripture cause it was my point:
Romans 8:28 And we know that all things work together for good for them who love him and have been called according to his purpose
but honestly I felt that this hit home more:
Romans 8:32 He who did not spare his own Son but gave him up for us all, how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things??
Thats really how I feel, There was no reason besides love to give us what he gave us. Forgiveness, but also every day he takes care of us!!!! He gives us everything we need plus more cause he loves us that much. No matter what bad things have happened in my life I've never been alone and I've never been hopeless.
(and thankfully, even though all 4 of those friendships ended badly at the time I am on speaking terms and still care about all those people very much, and all of them seem to be happy :D)
(funny how this entry started as me being sad about the one person from my past I dont talk to anymore and it would up all rambly :end super scattered entry:)