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What the hell is wrong with me? i feel like im never going to have that something. you know the kind of love that liss and john have, i feel like im am always going to be alone. Yes i like Eric and no i cant tell him so back off! i dont know if it is the fear of rejection or the rejection that i know im going to get? i mean i know the girls he goes for and lets face it im not it. like matt said he doesnt even know i exisit.
you know my cuz had an entry and said she could look in the mirror and see all the things that are wrong with her, and all i could think is what does she see? because i would die to look like her and she is 3 years younger than me. Becca you are beautifal dont let people put you down!
There are so many things that i wish i could change about my self not for any guy but for me. not just about my bodie but about my personality, about my life. i know i put on this smile but if you were in my head you wouldnt be able to hold it together.
The other day i was walking out to my car and saw what chad wrote on blairs car and i was thinking aww that is so sweet, why cant i find someone like that, some one to ask me to prom like that? i mean i love you to death matt you are my best friend but you know what i am talking about. i dont know i guess i just want to feel like someone wants me not, wow she is a good friend.
*Lori
you know my cuz had an entry and said she could look in the mirror and see all the things that are wrong with her, and all i could think is what does she see? because i would die to look like her and she is 3 years younger than me. Becca you are beautifal dont let people put you down!
There are so many things that i wish i could change about my self not for any guy but for me. not just about my bodie but about my personality, about my life. i know i put on this smile but if you were in my head you wouldnt be able to hold it together.
The other day i was walking out to my car and saw what chad wrote on blairs car and i was thinking aww that is so sweet, why cant i find someone like that, some one to ask me to prom like that? i mean i love you to death matt you are my best friend but you know what i am talking about. i dont know i guess i just want to feel like someone wants me not, wow she is a good friend.
*Lori