Forever your eyes will hold the memory
I don't know where to start this and Eli made the suggestion to start from today...and just pick up where I left off but where I left of is a completely different life then what I have now.
It's been over a month since life changed tragically and dramtically... September 17 is when my world stopped. My cousin Mark died at Fredonia in his off-campus appartment. And although I can say those words now, they are still just words, I still don't believe it and it doesn't seem real. Life has been moving in slow motion since then and in all honesty I'm not ready to press play. Losing Mark is by far the worst expierence of my life and I miss him more and more everyday. I don't know how to deal with something that doesn't seem real... it hurts too much. If you didn't know Mark, you missed out on a lot. He was one of those guys that would do whatever he could to make people smile and let them know he cared. He had a huge heart and his memory will stay with me forever. Reading my poem at his funeral was one of if not the hardest thing I've ever done... but I love my four... (Timmy, Billy, Adam & Mark.) and I love all of my family.. especially you Tess, I adore you. Thank you to everyone who had a caring word or helping hand... it meant a lot. And I know people mean well when they say "If there's anything I can do let me know." but there is only one thing I want them to do.. bring back Mark. I love him very much and miss him a lot... he's forever in my heart.
Other then thinking about Mark everyday I've been trying to live life as normal as possible even though I don't want to keep going without him. I've been still working at the Prospector and the Garage. Tonight I finish Cheerleading at Sectionals and Monday I start Basketball. I'm Cheering for GCC and still manage to find time to Dance on Mondays. I've been keeping busy with school and my clubs and trying hard to keep my grades at where they are. Tera keeps me busy as do all of my other wonderful friends and family. I got voted "Most School Spirit" and finally picked up my senior pictures and new car. Life is going as ?good? as it possibly can be for now and I look forward to visiting Nate and everyone at Fredonia and especially seeing them play this year. I have written down some fun things to put in here but I'll wait to get back in the swing of things till I add them.
Sorry I left for so long.
<3 Cortni
*In Loving Memory of MFB*
It's been over a month since life changed tragically and dramtically... September 17 is when my world stopped. My cousin Mark died at Fredonia in his off-campus appartment. And although I can say those words now, they are still just words, I still don't believe it and it doesn't seem real. Life has been moving in slow motion since then and in all honesty I'm not ready to press play. Losing Mark is by far the worst expierence of my life and I miss him more and more everyday. I don't know how to deal with something that doesn't seem real... it hurts too much. If you didn't know Mark, you missed out on a lot. He was one of those guys that would do whatever he could to make people smile and let them know he cared. He had a huge heart and his memory will stay with me forever. Reading my poem at his funeral was one of if not the hardest thing I've ever done... but I love my four... (Timmy, Billy, Adam & Mark.) and I love all of my family.. especially you Tess, I adore you. Thank you to everyone who had a caring word or helping hand... it meant a lot. And I know people mean well when they say "If there's anything I can do let me know." but there is only one thing I want them to do.. bring back Mark. I love him very much and miss him a lot... he's forever in my heart.
Other then thinking about Mark everyday I've been trying to live life as normal as possible even though I don't want to keep going without him. I've been still working at the Prospector and the Garage. Tonight I finish Cheerleading at Sectionals and Monday I start Basketball. I'm Cheering for GCC and still manage to find time to Dance on Mondays. I've been keeping busy with school and my clubs and trying hard to keep my grades at where they are. Tera keeps me busy as do all of my other wonderful friends and family. I got voted "Most School Spirit" and finally picked up my senior pictures and new car. Life is going as ?good? as it possibly can be for now and I look forward to visiting Nate and everyone at Fredonia and especially seeing them play this year. I have written down some fun things to put in here but I'll wait to get back in the swing of things till I add them.
Sorry I left for so long.
<3 Cortni
*In Loving Memory of MFB*