knock and load or load and knock?

[sweetlkecandi]

ok so i'm back from camp for tonight and a little of tomorrow. stupid-ass scheduling. the main reason im annoyed is that i dont get to see my lover if im at home. but my lover is totally off limits anyways. which is kinda sad if you think about it. and my friend and i have nicknamed him "warm" cuz he's hot and cool at the same time. yeah...we're clever like that. and he knows we think he's warm too. and i think he knows i like him. but as i already said, he's totally off limits plus he's 4 years older than me. not that i mind the age difference really. and this guy, for once, is actually worth liking. cuz he's not a jerk like most guys i usually like. he's also not like the guys i usually like. like, he's not a swimmer or anything like that. which is weird of me. but i really really like him. ok enough about that.

now let me ramble about the suckiness of having to be back from camp. let me just say, it sucks. i dunno why. i guess it's just not being around ppl. i hate not being around my friends. ok yeah. im kinda bored with this now so ill stop writing.