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so i got my ap scores. 4 in bio and 5 in euro. its all as i expected. but i feel absolutely no emotion about it. the only thing i feel is great indifference. i really dont know why but its as if tho im immune to all feeling right now. i feel numb for some reason. emotionally numb. its, weird, i know. but what can i do.
blumking is letting me manage swimming! im psyched. i love that. cuz i told him i couldnt swim for beans and he said i could manage then and that sometimes i could even practice with them. estoy muy contenta!!!!
also, i was watching a trial today about a party in agoura hills about a year ago when someone got stabbed with a kinfe cuz they wouldnt let him into the party. the defendant was actually pretty hot and didnt seem like someone violent. but hey. i guess i cant analyze ppl well enough.
i got new goggles. just thought i'd share that cuz they're very prettyful. so i guess, sometimes u gotta lose something to find something better.
saw the girl next door. that movie was quite porn-ful but it was fun to watch. it was quite funny.
absolutely no progress with invisible man. cuz its a crap book, that's why. in fact, our school seems to feel that the more miserable we are the better. cuz they really dont assign anything interesting. at least this year they didnt. i think that for some reason i just have a very negative predesposition towards everything at the moment. i dunno why. i was having a very good day in the morning. in fact, until i came home, i was having an awesome day. but now, everything is just whatever. i cant tell why i feel the way i do. and i think i have to be more open about my feelings, just in general. cuz i feel like i always keep things on the inside, hide things. and it never leads to anything good. all it leads to is a short period of utter sadnossity and lots of crying. imma go now.