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So theres...5 more days until I'm offically done with high school!! I'm so excited!!! My ammount of motivation for studying is barely there. I hope that I can get through these finals!! Then theres graduation, and then the post graduation party!! I'm so excited for that!! Its going to be so much fun!!! Not that Hoover's post prom wasn't fun, but I think I'm going to have a lot more fun at post graduation just because more of my friends will be there and not just people I know through Danny and don't see that much. idk, but none the less, I'm still excited!!
I'm really starting to get excited to go to college too (not that I wasn't before). Its just that my mother and I really haven't been getting along lately, its really bad. Idk. Reguardless of how many times the say it isn't true I feel like a 5th child in a family of 4. They've been leaving me out of a lot of stuff lately and it really upsets me. Like last week I think it was...no, the week before last (sry its been a while since I really updated lol) anyway. My dad left to go to Florida for a business thing...no one told me about it. no one. I came home and asked my brother where we were going out to eat b/c it was his bday that day and my sister was like we already went last night, we're not going tonight. And I was like um...excuse me? Apparently they had gone out to eat the night before since my dad wasn't going to be there. So when I asked why they went last night my mom said because you dad couldn't be here. and I was like why? where is he? and she looked at me with like a 'duh' expression and was like hes in florida. Um no one told me that. I got upset about it and when I asked my dad later I asked why no one told me and he was like I guess I was just under the impression someone told you and I forgot after that. How could you forget to tell someone that?! I just can't comprehend that. How could you forget to tell someone in your family that you are going out of the state?! They acted like I was making a big deal out of nothing, well to me it wasn't nothing. Then last week someone called and left a message from me from morningside and then someone else that I had called earlier this week. I just found out yesterday that they had called and left messages for me. And my mom said oh, well I guess I just forgot to tell you. Yeah people forget things...it just ticks me off. grawr!!
Went to the Awards Concert tonight. I really liked it...I love going to Danny's concerts and hearing them all sing. It makes me with that I could sing...:( I get really jealous listening and seeing some of the people there at the concerts. *sigh* I just wish that I could be like some people...be talented like them and as pretty as them and as...ugh. I don't want to go into it. I've just been having a lot of self esteem troubles lately. Thinking about doing things that I promised I wouldnt' do (which I won't, don't worry Danny.) Its just frustrating because its such a problem for me to get over things. Cheerleading camp is coming up...I need to get back in shape for that...lose weight for that. I'm a flyer. Flyers are supposed to be skinny and light, and I don't want to lose being a flyer. Flying is my passion in cheerleading, I don't want to lose that spot on a squad. I just need to figure out something to do, something that will work.
I'm done....Good Night!!
~Laura
I'm really starting to get excited to go to college too (not that I wasn't before). Its just that my mother and I really haven't been getting along lately, its really bad. Idk. Reguardless of how many times the say it isn't true I feel like a 5th child in a family of 4. They've been leaving me out of a lot of stuff lately and it really upsets me. Like last week I think it was...no, the week before last (sry its been a while since I really updated lol) anyway. My dad left to go to Florida for a business thing...no one told me about it. no one. I came home and asked my brother where we were going out to eat b/c it was his bday that day and my sister was like we already went last night, we're not going tonight. And I was like um...excuse me? Apparently they had gone out to eat the night before since my dad wasn't going to be there. So when I asked why they went last night my mom said because you dad couldn't be here. and I was like why? where is he? and she looked at me with like a 'duh' expression and was like hes in florida. Um no one told me that. I got upset about it and when I asked my dad later I asked why no one told me and he was like I guess I was just under the impression someone told you and I forgot after that. How could you forget to tell someone that?! I just can't comprehend that. How could you forget to tell someone in your family that you are going out of the state?! They acted like I was making a big deal out of nothing, well to me it wasn't nothing. Then last week someone called and left a message from me from morningside and then someone else that I had called earlier this week. I just found out yesterday that they had called and left messages for me. And my mom said oh, well I guess I just forgot to tell you. Yeah people forget things...it just ticks me off. grawr!!
Went to the Awards Concert tonight. I really liked it...I love going to Danny's concerts and hearing them all sing. It makes me with that I could sing...:( I get really jealous listening and seeing some of the people there at the concerts. *sigh* I just wish that I could be like some people...be talented like them and as pretty as them and as...ugh. I don't want to go into it. I've just been having a lot of self esteem troubles lately. Thinking about doing things that I promised I wouldnt' do (which I won't, don't worry Danny.) Its just frustrating because its such a problem for me to get over things. Cheerleading camp is coming up...I need to get back in shape for that...lose weight for that. I'm a flyer. Flyers are supposed to be skinny and light, and I don't want to lose being a flyer. Flying is my passion in cheerleading, I don't want to lose that spot on a squad. I just need to figure out something to do, something that will work.
I'm done....Good Night!!
~Laura