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[sweetkissses]

wow...i've had a preety rough week. internally i mean. i mean nothing actually went wrong outside...just on the inside...things collapsed on me again. im...yeh...and yeh....but its not as horrible...just kinda bleak. and then on the plus side i met my jbs on monday...yes, her name is cynthia...cindy for short...she's preety cool..i mean she's my mentor and all...i just want to get to know her a little bit better ya know, and yes yes yes she has a freakin dog named lily. did i tell ya'll that im over the fear of dogs...finally, sheesh... woot woot!! ok but im still feeling...yeh...and yeh....and im so freakin pissed at my mom...i mean im freakin pissed at everybody...god i just wish she would die...not my mom this other girl...god damn her...u know i wish she wouldn't die now...but when the time came i hope that she goes to hell instead of heaven. oh im such a rotten person for saying that amen't i?? but she is a more rotten person b/c she effed up my life. so i guess we're equal right..effing my life=goes to hell. oh yeh and for english i have decided to write a poem about the other skank...chicken broth i call her...ahahahah....cause she freakin looks like chicken broth...ewww anorexic biatch. die bitch, u stupid fuck. ah. oh yeh i made a poster today of all the people i hate...came up w/ like 15 peeps...and then i felt better...oh and then i included comments about what i wished would happen to them and how they have affected me. i hope they eat 94385904385934859438509485094385940385903485098349584309584039859034858504358034985940385943859438594385943859430859430859438590485943850934859043dsg of zyprexa and become freakin schizophrenic or something...no but seriously...i mean if its for the fuckin education...i might as well just switch and go to uni..those "lubias" and seeyahs" and "chestangs" as sterotyped by persians r wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy better than those fucking hairy mofos. i swear. at least they have the least bit of affection in their hearts. and as for my education...my dream is to go sdsu w/ my cousin ody..and then master psychology and mathematics...and hopefully someday become a algebra teacher and then soon after a school counselor/psychologist. sounds swiffy to me. lol haha good word there. ok well its yom kippur now and im not supposed to be online but my dad isn't home so im like wth...im goin on (u can't touch electricty during yom kippur--for all my non-jews)...yeh, but i mean seriously fuck fuck FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK the people i have come to hate, they have ruined my intelligence, my happiness, my exciteness, my hopes to go on, they have basically destroyed me, sandy. wow make that 493859048594385943859438594859485943859348590485904385984395834509438594083590438590485904385943859485943859348594085934859485943859438594085948594584958940850498504385934859438594085094854905894085904385943085948549305dsg of zyprexa....ahhh....they r the reason for my yeh...and yeh....it would be so cool just to switch schools and even if i didn't make any friends there, i wouldn't at least have to see their faces every fuckin' day. i hope u die. today, tomorrow, or next week. i am sooo not in a good mood as u can already tell, but fuck that too. ok well im gonna go read a book now, i got a good book from the library that im lookin forward to reading. ok bye.

p.s: have u noticed that i only write in here when im in a bad state/mood?? hmmmm....