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so it has been a while since i've updated my lj. so now i will. no one really updates their lj's anymore i mean like barely except for a few like ava, and nikki and kimmy. yeh those r the only people i know who do. so my mom has been hurting my feelings a lot lately. damn, i really do hate writing personal stuff on an online blog but i just can't seem to get used to writing in a diary. i mean i try n' stuff but it just never works. ...so for now lj'll have to do. ok well bak to my mom. she's such a biotch to me in my face. everyday she puts me down. everyday she compares me to her friends' children and says how much better they r then me. she has this one friend who i can seriously kill any day, ok lets not get violent here, but well i want to scream at her and just stomp all over her. god she's such a bitch i swear. i don't know what she has against me but take today for instance...so im getting a haircut at her stupid salon and im wearing shorts and a tank top and she goes telling me mom..."rosie why do u wash sandy's clothes soo much...look their shrinking!" can u say BITCH!!!!! y the fuck does it matter to her if my navel is showing. fuck it. ugh god i am never going there again. she is always criticizing everything about me. my clothes, my hair, my body. she even once told me..."you're fat, lose some weight." as if im not aware of my obesity here she goes rubbing it all in my face. thanxs sweetie. god. but my mom, i swear she has anxiety problems. and im not just saying this so she feels bad, i love her to death...but i think she needs to stop acting anxious over such STUPID STUPID STUPID stuff. take today for instance...so we had an appointment at like 3 p.m and im taking a shower at 1:30 p.m, exactly an hour and a half before our appointment time and she comes in hollering at me saying "why the hell r u taking a shower at this time? we're gonna be late." uh, hello lady, its called personal hygiene, and personally i don't wanna smell like a skunk. so she goes crying like a madwoman, screaming, threatening that shes gonna die. WHAT THE FUCK! lol. seriously, people. come on here do i do that when u take a shower.
have u ever loved someone so bad...but get this, they don't like u back. so as u all know, i have had a crush on this boy for 2 years, yeh and i really like him. and now that summertime has rolled by, i can't stop obcessing over him, or even stop thinking about him. and being the loser that i am, i have repeatedly told him that i like him, like he was some kind of blind person. well he knows, but what can he do about it. he just doesn't fucking feel the same way that i do. he kinda maybe even hates me. not sure. but i've been kind of annoying. i dunno, IMing him all the time, afraid that if i don't, ill lose him or something. i almost wish i was going to a different high school. i just can't face him in 20 days. wtf is wrong with me?
hah. new subject. i don't have any friends. yup, for all of u people who didn't know it. i don't have any real friends. i seriously don't. no true friends. out of the entire summer, i've only seen the people from my school once. hah. once. yup. i don't know why everyone hates me, they just do they say. am i not popular enough for u? or preety? or nice? or WHAT THE FUCK is it. come on. im waiting.
k, last subject of the day. mental illness. so y is it that when someone has a mental illness they can't admit it to their friends. i mean aren't friends for admitting problems to or telling them deep, dark secrets. oh ya, i don't have any friends. loser. so ya i have a mental illness. can anyone guess what?? i take forever to get dressed, i obcess over everything (most of time) and im depressed often. well thats an easy, no-brainer. yeh im a bum. loser. ah, i am so negative. well, thats part of the mental illness. k tootels everyone, bye.
have u ever loved someone so bad...but get this, they don't like u back. so as u all know, i have had a crush on this boy for 2 years, yeh and i really like him. and now that summertime has rolled by, i can't stop obcessing over him, or even stop thinking about him. and being the loser that i am, i have repeatedly told him that i like him, like he was some kind of blind person. well he knows, but what can he do about it. he just doesn't fucking feel the same way that i do. he kinda maybe even hates me. not sure. but i've been kind of annoying. i dunno, IMing him all the time, afraid that if i don't, ill lose him or something. i almost wish i was going to a different high school. i just can't face him in 20 days. wtf is wrong with me?
hah. new subject. i don't have any friends. yup, for all of u people who didn't know it. i don't have any real friends. i seriously don't. no true friends. out of the entire summer, i've only seen the people from my school once. hah. once. yup. i don't know why everyone hates me, they just do they say. am i not popular enough for u? or preety? or nice? or WHAT THE FUCK is it. come on. im waiting.
k, last subject of the day. mental illness. so y is it that when someone has a mental illness they can't admit it to their friends. i mean aren't friends for admitting problems to or telling them deep, dark secrets. oh ya, i don't have any friends. loser. so ya i have a mental illness. can anyone guess what?? i take forever to get dressed, i obcess over everything (most of time) and im depressed often. well thats an easy, no-brainer. yeh im a bum. loser. ah, i am so negative. well, thats part of the mental illness. k tootels everyone, bye.