guess who's back....back again....sandys back!!!!!!!!

[sweetkissses]

heyy ya'll. woot. um lemme c...so many things have changed in my life these past let's c...5 months??? i mean god...my heart was scrunged in many aspects, love not included. but w/e. don't wanna to get into that drama. though from all the hardships and pain i endured...i became stronger. i feel as if i still have milestones to achieve in my life. my #1 goal in life is to fight my own battles, and not just rely on moms, and ****. lets c...everything seems to be going good w/ grades. gettin all A's. u know whats f**ked up? i used to be reely upset when i got these A+'s and what not, wishing that i was happy instead, but now that i reflect, those grades r what keeps me going. still trying to tone down on perfectionism cause its o' so hard to keep up with everything being perfect at all times. thats another goal of mine. and also...i can't effing believe im going to high school preety soon, after graduation, and summer school...and such...its gonna be weird...but i dunno, i hope to find some fate and destiny for moi self there. and i want to find lifelong friends there. ppl who i can totally open to...now especially more than ever. however...this was probably the hardest years of my 14 years of life. im glad it happened tho. im gonna take what happened to me and build on that. im gonna keep going...climbing the mountain, step by step, rock by rock, glacier by glacier...i will update soons tho...im getting a new comp i think...ahhh yes!!! woot woot woot woot!!!!!! finally get my pics on the comp!!!!!!!!!
and on a final note, i would like to thank each and all for helping me this year...ur unconditional support and care will be cherished forevermore deep in my heart...thank you for bringing light to my darkest days: special thanxs goes to moms, grandma, saman (i love u sooo much)...and auntie, and n.b, f.y, and e.l!!!!!THANK YOU AND I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!