today tomarrow & forever..
Dear god,
i know my eyes are becoming weary,
i know this pain is eating right through me,
everyday i know i try,
but then i seem to question & ask why,
it doesnt matter what they bealive,
you and i both know i am not easy,
you and i both know i want to be better,
you and i know why im writing you this letter,
theres so much i have to say,
im scared to start, but i'll start today,
i can't run anymore,
because there is no escape- there is no door,
So tonight when my eyes get heavy and grow weak,
i'll try not to cry myself to sleep,
so tonight when i punish myself,
i'll think of my health,
so tonight when i hurt,
ill remmber what im worth..
and tomarrow i will go to school,
i will smile & and play it off cool,
i will loook my friend in the eye,
and pretend i never cry,
i will tell others how happy i am to be alive,
when i really barley just get by,
and then i will come home and let him get the best of me,
i will let this on going pattern repeat,
today
tomarrow
& forever....
Ahh so i just wrote that, out of know where i decided like writing i suppose. latley things are okay, although i wish sometimes things wernt this way
i wish i could just be happy, but insteadd i fight for things that hurt me more i dont understand myself, and neither do you
well have a goodnight<333
i know my eyes are becoming weary,
i know this pain is eating right through me,
everyday i know i try,
but then i seem to question & ask why,
it doesnt matter what they bealive,
you and i both know i am not easy,
you and i both know i want to be better,
you and i know why im writing you this letter,
theres so much i have to say,
im scared to start, but i'll start today,
i can't run anymore,
because there is no escape- there is no door,
So tonight when my eyes get heavy and grow weak,
i'll try not to cry myself to sleep,
so tonight when i punish myself,
i'll think of my health,
so tonight when i hurt,
ill remmber what im worth..
and tomarrow i will go to school,
i will smile & and play it off cool,
i will loook my friend in the eye,
and pretend i never cry,
i will tell others how happy i am to be alive,
when i really barley just get by,
and then i will come home and let him get the best of me,
i will let this on going pattern repeat,
today
tomarrow
& forever....
Ahh so i just wrote that, out of know where i decided like writing i suppose. latley things are okay, although i wish sometimes things wernt this way
i wish i could just be happy, but insteadd i fight for things that hurt me more i dont understand myself, and neither do you
well have a goodnight<333