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Nobodys awake to talk to so I'm just gunna type shit...
I'm sitting here looking at all my photos wishing that I was still in highschool...I just read tiffs profile and saw the "suny purchase 09" and I think it hit me that we are all in different school, and I was like wait no that's not the way that it's supposed to be, we all go to Carmel...but we don't and it hurts like hell. I miss being with brian and louie in 10th grade, I even miss the drama that came along with it. I miss every single thing about tiff and the family. I would give anything to be able to be at tiffs house without having to be thinking that I'm gunna be leaving in a few days and that I'll have to enjoy having the kids around, hearing aunt michele around, watching uncle tom pretend that he doesnt like me, and chilling with tiff and mike all night on the couch watching god knows what on tv....You never realize how good you have it until its all gone. It sucks because everytime I go home I have to make time to see everyone when in reality all I want to do is make things how they were in the past, but I know I can't do that cause now all I can think about is "did I see everyone I had to before I leave" and it just doesnt feel right. Don't even get me started on matt cause thats a whole new story and a lot more tears...
I'm sitting here looking at all my photos wishing that I was still in highschool...I just read tiffs profile and saw the "suny purchase 09" and I think it hit me that we are all in different school, and I was like wait no that's not the way that it's supposed to be, we all go to Carmel...but we don't and it hurts like hell. I miss being with brian and louie in 10th grade, I even miss the drama that came along with it. I miss every single thing about tiff and the family. I would give anything to be able to be at tiffs house without having to be thinking that I'm gunna be leaving in a few days and that I'll have to enjoy having the kids around, hearing aunt michele around, watching uncle tom pretend that he doesnt like me, and chilling with tiff and mike all night on the couch watching god knows what on tv....You never realize how good you have it until its all gone. It sucks because everytime I go home I have to make time to see everyone when in reality all I want to do is make things how they were in the past, but I know I can't do that cause now all I can think about is "did I see everyone I had to before I leave" and it just doesnt feel right. Don't even get me started on matt cause thats a whole new story and a lot more tears...