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Andrew just told me that he is going to a wedding in like 3 weeks and for some reason it really pissed me off. I guess its because I can't go? Like, a wedding is a big party and I want to be there with him and I want him to dance with ME at the reception!!! I'm kinda over reacting but shit, he wasn't even like "I want you to go with me". He was like, "I can see if you can go but I don't think you can because there are only a limited number of seats". I have been in a really irritated mood and every LITTLE thing is getting to me.
I had a really long talk with one of my friends (who shall remain nameless) on Friday night. We talked for 3 hours straight about NOTHING!!! And for the first time in a year and 8 months, I wasn't worried about Andrew and what he was doing because I was so caught up in what was going on with me right then.
I haven't felt like that in a long time... actually- EVER.
I argued with Andrew earlier today too... about e-mails (dumb.). I was frustrated because he never e-mails me but he e-mails other girls that he doesn't even know. And I mentioned to him last night that it upset me that he goes out EVERY night and that I didn't realize it was something that I was going to have to deal with and that I can't handle it right now. He has lied to me so many times about the littlest things that it gets so hard for me to trust him. When he calls me at 4:30 in the morning when hes going to bed and I ask him what hes doing and I just get the run around, my suspicion level raises.
I don't think I made any sense today........ too much thinking going on. I need a punching bag.
I had a really long talk with one of my friends (who shall remain nameless) on Friday night. We talked for 3 hours straight about NOTHING!!! And for the first time in a year and 8 months, I wasn't worried about Andrew and what he was doing because I was so caught up in what was going on with me right then.
I haven't felt like that in a long time... actually- EVER.
I argued with Andrew earlier today too... about e-mails (dumb.). I was frustrated because he never e-mails me but he e-mails other girls that he doesn't even know. And I mentioned to him last night that it upset me that he goes out EVERY night and that I didn't realize it was something that I was going to have to deal with and that I can't handle it right now. He has lied to me so many times about the littlest things that it gets so hard for me to trust him. When he calls me at 4:30 in the morning when hes going to bed and I ask him what hes doing and I just get the run around, my suspicion level raises.
I don't think I made any sense today........ too much thinking going on. I need a punching bag.