honey, try walking a mile in my shoes
I'll admit it. i actually walk in many directions.
In saying this, I'm confessing the ultimate truth of my existence. This need to be amused at all costs has turned me into a jack of all trades. Instead of being extremely talented in one thing, i'm decent in many things. For some reason, being versatile has many bad connotations. But there's nothing wrong with wanting to be never bored, having comfort in seeking things for yourself, and ( I know I already said it) doing something for yourself. But I do fill in the classifications of JACK. I start many things and don't finish. I get bored of one thing and move on to the next thing very quickly. And I am fickled about everything. BUT I don't mind being almost good at the things I love to do at the time.
Yes, I walk in many directions. But there are not many new directions. Actually, I walked the same four paths over and over again. Maybe I am actually four definitely personalities in one and there is a time period for each one.
The other day, one of my coworkers (in feeble attempt, to get to know me) asked me the dreaded icebreaker question: "So what do you do for fun?"
Of course, I never honestly answer the question and respond politely with a simple "oh, many things," and the conversation ended with the arrival of our food.
Now, I realized that a great amount of people don't really know what makes me tick. The reason, mostly, I really don't care to tell them. I am the type of person that you just watch and learn. And what you will see and learn is that I am passionate about these four things but I keep trading them off with each other. If I ever have the opportunity or forced to give a detailed account of my life, I would end up with a detailed list of my many half-baked interests. If you think about it, even if everything is half-baked, they make a whole me.
1. Writing.
I write everyday. The problem is, I don't write everything in one place. Did you know that I own at least four writing journals, each with halfed filled pages of writing? In addition to the journals, I have my livejournal. I write everything down. My ideas, my opinions, things I see on the streets, recipes, quotes, and even my own poems. Eventually, I want to be more productive with my writing. I feel what I write is very honest and vulnerable. I used to write stories and when that time period comes around again, I will.
2. Art.
I miss art. Sometimes I wonder how I went from painting and drawing everyday in high school to barely having time to even start something. Recently, I have chosen an emphasis for my artwork. Nature. Fruits and Vegetables. Gardens. Trees. One of my goals in life is putting together a portfolio for myself of photographs, drawings, and of course paintings. I remember in high school I had to put together a 20 piece portfolio. Maybe its time to use the next four years to out together my new point of view. Lucky for me, I live close to one of best art stores in San Diego. This summer, I am going to take a Nature photography class and painting class. I think this is will be a good push for me.
3. Dancing.
I don't exercise. If I want to be active, I either go swimming or dance in a studio. Dancing distracts me. I hide from everyone that I dance but its a good secret that I never ever going to share.
4. Leading a meaningful life.
I don't have to explain this one.
After reading my list, maybe I am talented at something. Instead of looking at these 4 things as separate interests, they are actually one. I'll tell you something right now, maybe I'm just damn good at being me.