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[sweetkid029]

Yeah well my life has been pretty alright lately.. I know i need to talk to someone but i really honestly cant. And these are my reasons. (they're good): ok well 1) I dont want to bring anyone down with my sob stories. 2) There is nothing that whoever i tell can do to make me feel better. 3) If i DO talk about it ill most likely start crying because i have held it in too long and its just dumb when i cry, i feel so stupid because the other person doesnt know what to do to "comfort" me and whatnot.. Sooo my conclusion is to just write it out in this because no one REALLY reads this so its no big deal.. I have been going to the gym and that honestly makes me happy. I have decided im going on friday and then not going out and then ill go out saturday.. Ill need my rest because i have been falling asleep in class. On a lighter more superficial note... I think im going to start taking these other pills to make my hair grow.. I have been so good at not straightening it.. I have only done it once in the past week and a half! its good.. But i only did it that once because i thought dana and i were going to a football game where there would be college guys at, so you know i would have to look good and all.. but we didnt. Oh well i still had fun. I dont know what else to say really.. I cant wait untill spring break.. I know winter break is closer.. but its sooo fricken cold out! i hate it! and spring break is all about the beaches and tanning, or snowboarding with hot guys.. either way, its just better.. and by then ill be able to drive and such. Its cool. I love my new curfue! its like i dont even have to check in and i just love it!...I just know its going to get me into trouble some day.. But thats why im going to the gym on friday nights, its one more night im off the streets as a little hoodrat whore thingy that people perceive me as.. ok well i have blabbed on enough, have a wonderful evening
i must take a shower, yucky gym feeling..
~ashley