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*Well, i want to give a very *Special *HEY* to those who actually read live journal still. i remember when everyone used to write on here. Now it's a thing of the past! Oh well.....it gives me a chance to take a break for a few. To write/type some of my thoughts and feelings down. Sometimes it makes me feel better, but sometimes it makes me feel worse. Either way, i think it's a good thing for me. Plus, it's neat to be able to look back on things i wrote from long ago.
*i will admit, it's been a little disappointing lately. It just really sucks to grow up sometimes. i really miss my family and friends. i mean i still see and talk to some of them...but nothings the same. i'm just so afraid of loosing the people i love. And having to look back on it and regretting that i never did anything. That i could of picked up the phone as easily as they could of. It's just so hard to accomplish anything these days...everything and everyone are always so busy and rushed. Although, i feel like i've tried...but at the same time i feel like i'm not doing everything in my power. i just hate pushing people...or imposing.
*Anyways, i'm at one of those stages again in my life, where i evaluate every little thing. And i think about things so deeply it hurts. i mean i am always thinking about things too much, but at this point it's driving me insane. It's the whole memories of the past, and worries of the future kinda thing.
*And people are just really complicated sometimes. And Life is just really complicated sometimes. It's just crazy and kinda scary how short this life here on earth really is. i mean everyone just goes day by day...and scurries about their so called "life." It's like no one has a minute to just chill out and enjoy the true beauty of the world. And i just think that's really sad.
*i feel deep down inside that i am supposed to make some sort of difference to this world. i just can't put my finger on exactly what it is i am supposed to do. Or how i am supposed to do it. It's like i have 100 ropes tied to me, and each one is pulling me in a different direction. i am so confused at where to go or what to do. i am lost. i am trying to find out what my life is supposed to mean....and what i am supposed to do..... but i guess only time and God will tell.
*Love Always...
*i will admit, it's been a little disappointing lately. It just really sucks to grow up sometimes. i really miss my family and friends. i mean i still see and talk to some of them...but nothings the same. i'm just so afraid of loosing the people i love. And having to look back on it and regretting that i never did anything. That i could of picked up the phone as easily as they could of. It's just so hard to accomplish anything these days...everything and everyone are always so busy and rushed. Although, i feel like i've tried...but at the same time i feel like i'm not doing everything in my power. i just hate pushing people...or imposing.
*Anyways, i'm at one of those stages again in my life, where i evaluate every little thing. And i think about things so deeply it hurts. i mean i am always thinking about things too much, but at this point it's driving me insane. It's the whole memories of the past, and worries of the future kinda thing.
*And people are just really complicated sometimes. And Life is just really complicated sometimes. It's just crazy and kinda scary how short this life here on earth really is. i mean everyone just goes day by day...and scurries about their so called "life." It's like no one has a minute to just chill out and enjoy the true beauty of the world. And i just think that's really sad.
*i feel deep down inside that i am supposed to make some sort of difference to this world. i just can't put my finger on exactly what it is i am supposed to do. Or how i am supposed to do it. It's like i have 100 ropes tied to me, and each one is pulling me in a different direction. i am so confused at where to go or what to do. i am lost. i am trying to find out what my life is supposed to mean....and what i am supposed to do..... but i guess only time and God will tell.
*Love Always...