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My life has taken so many turns I never expected, as it goes "I guess this is growing up" our milestones are really just us being adults and living through hard times.
In November my dad got pnemonia and nearly died and is now pretty much back to normal.
In February we had a birthday party for my friend Maria where everyone celebrated her life and had an amazing time.
On April 8, 2016 Maria was admitted for bleeding and on April 17, 2016 Maria passed away at Amara hospice.
I never spoke about Maria anywhere but that didn't mean I didn't love her with all my heart. Maria was the kindest, craziest, funniest person I have ever met. She was so sweet and full of life no matter how much fear and pain she was suffering behind closed doors. She never complained and never said a negative word about anyone.
I really did see a lot of myself in her which is why we bonded so quickly. Only I am much more hot tempered lol
Maria always wanted to see me get married. I suppose she just wanted me to be happy. I wanted her to always be happy and she was. She never lost her faith, she never lost her huge smile and positive attitude. I hurt me so much to watch her get sick during her 1 week in the hospital. Seeing her be stuck in bed, in pain, and scared broke my heart. I'm so happy that during her last days I was able to spend time with her, make her laugh, have her give me her funny looks because I said something dumb lol.
I honesty cannot believe you're gone. I won't allow myself to truly accept it. I suppose that is how I'm protecting myself from the pain. I still feel like you are out there caring for all the sick people out there and making their day so much brighter with your smile and kindness. How do the people who love you go on without you? Today at the funeral home I saw you and I didn't believe that was you, when I saw you at the hospice I couldn't believe that you were no longer breathing. My heart and soul will not accept that you're gone.
Tomorrow we put your body to rest, I don't know what will happen next but we will all be there together.
I'm sorry this happened to you but I am happy I was able to share with you how much you meant to me. I was able to bring you some joy during your last days.
I look forward to seeing you again my beloved friend
In November my dad got pnemonia and nearly died and is now pretty much back to normal.
In February we had a birthday party for my friend Maria where everyone celebrated her life and had an amazing time.
On April 8, 2016 Maria was admitted for bleeding and on April 17, 2016 Maria passed away at Amara hospice.
I never spoke about Maria anywhere but that didn't mean I didn't love her with all my heart. Maria was the kindest, craziest, funniest person I have ever met. She was so sweet and full of life no matter how much fear and pain she was suffering behind closed doors. She never complained and never said a negative word about anyone.
I really did see a lot of myself in her which is why we bonded so quickly. Only I am much more hot tempered lol
Maria always wanted to see me get married. I suppose she just wanted me to be happy. I wanted her to always be happy and she was. She never lost her faith, she never lost her huge smile and positive attitude. I hurt me so much to watch her get sick during her 1 week in the hospital. Seeing her be stuck in bed, in pain, and scared broke my heart. I'm so happy that during her last days I was able to spend time with her, make her laugh, have her give me her funny looks because I said something dumb lol.
I honesty cannot believe you're gone. I won't allow myself to truly accept it. I suppose that is how I'm protecting myself from the pain. I still feel like you are out there caring for all the sick people out there and making their day so much brighter with your smile and kindness. How do the people who love you go on without you? Today at the funeral home I saw you and I didn't believe that was you, when I saw you at the hospice I couldn't believe that you were no longer breathing. My heart and soul will not accept that you're gone.
Tomorrow we put your body to rest, I don't know what will happen next but we will all be there together.
I'm sorry this happened to you but I am happy I was able to share with you how much you meant to me. I was able to bring you some joy during your last days.
I look forward to seeing you again my beloved friend