I cannot forget, refuse to regret...
I'm not really sure why I can't sleep. For the second night in a row, I am up until 4:00. Maybe my sleeplessness is due to the fact that I am so damn worried about my religious studies exam... although I haven't even started preparing for it. Maybe it is because my bed is so lonely. Maybe it is because I am so angry with myself because I still desperately want the closure from you that I know you aren't going to give me- I really just want to know that you actually cared about me at one point. Even if it were only for a split second, if you cared about me at all, I guess all the pain that I went through was worth it.
I only have 3 days left in Columbia and I really have mixed emotions about it. It has surely been a roller coaster year- with tons of ups and downs that has made this year totally unforgettable. I'm really happy with the way that my life is right now. I have great friends, great family, and a great future. Sometimes I feel like something is missing and I'm really not sure what it could be.
I never expected freshman year to end up the way that it has. I never in anyways expected to be as close to some of the people that I am closest to now. Like Justin for example. We are truly complete opposites but we mesh. The way that he gets so damn intense about the stupidest things makes me smile and I know he just loves how Emily and I have truly given him some insight in the female mind- like why we have to change clothes everytime we leave the room or why he can't just yell at us for stupid reasons and not expect us to get a hurt look on our faces. And like Pat and David- although we were friends in high school, I never expected to spend every single night with them. You guys are the greatest... you best try and make some time for me this summer. I know its going to be hard juggling work and the band but hey- you gotta show some love for your favorite groupie! ;)
I couldn't have made it through this year without Mary and Emily- they literally held me together through some tough times. Emily: I am going to miss our before bed talks. I'll probably have to come over to your house in the middle of the night this summer and crawl in bed with you!
And what can I say about my Mary?? Even though I didn't get to hang out with you as much these past couple of weeks because you actually decided to study this semester (unlike some of us! HA), I wouldn't have made it through without your Mary-isms! You give the best advice and I love you for that! ;)
And all the new people I've met- Lyko and the entire 3rd floor of Snowden, Mandy-Patandy, Tyler and Mike, James, Alice, Danny (definitely the hottest boy I've ever had the pleasure of seeing up close) Clary, MichShorter-Pants and the other two freshman (Sarah-Oh-O and Little Dan) that helped make up the fab four, everyone of my amazing sorority sisters, and all the other kids that I've met definitely changed my life.
Ok defintely didn't mean to make this a sappy post.
I can't wait for this summer and to see all the people that I hardly got to see this year. I can't wait for girls night, going to Coffee Underground, and probably being bored most of the time- but being bored with the greatest people in the world.
Out of the 24 hours in the day- 2:00 AM is my least favorite hour.
I only have 3 days left in Columbia and I really have mixed emotions about it. It has surely been a roller coaster year- with tons of ups and downs that has made this year totally unforgettable. I'm really happy with the way that my life is right now. I have great friends, great family, and a great future. Sometimes I feel like something is missing and I'm really not sure what it could be.
I never expected freshman year to end up the way that it has. I never in anyways expected to be as close to some of the people that I am closest to now. Like Justin for example. We are truly complete opposites but we mesh. The way that he gets so damn intense about the stupidest things makes me smile and I know he just loves how Emily and I have truly given him some insight in the female mind- like why we have to change clothes everytime we leave the room or why he can't just yell at us for stupid reasons and not expect us to get a hurt look on our faces. And like Pat and David- although we were friends in high school, I never expected to spend every single night with them. You guys are the greatest... you best try and make some time for me this summer. I know its going to be hard juggling work and the band but hey- you gotta show some love for your favorite groupie! ;)
I couldn't have made it through this year without Mary and Emily- they literally held me together through some tough times. Emily: I am going to miss our before bed talks. I'll probably have to come over to your house in the middle of the night this summer and crawl in bed with you!
And what can I say about my Mary?? Even though I didn't get to hang out with you as much these past couple of weeks because you actually decided to study this semester (unlike some of us! HA), I wouldn't have made it through without your Mary-isms! You give the best advice and I love you for that! ;)
And all the new people I've met- Lyko and the entire 3rd floor of Snowden, Mandy-Patandy, Tyler and Mike, James, Alice, Danny (definitely the hottest boy I've ever had the pleasure of seeing up close) Clary, MichShorter-Pants and the other two freshman (Sarah-Oh-O and Little Dan) that helped make up the fab four, everyone of my amazing sorority sisters, and all the other kids that I've met definitely changed my life.
Ok defintely didn't mean to make this a sappy post.
I can't wait for this summer and to see all the people that I hardly got to see this year. I can't wait for girls night, going to Coffee Underground, and probably being bored most of the time- but being bored with the greatest people in the world.
Out of the 24 hours in the day- 2:00 AM is my least favorite hour.