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3 days til my birthday! yea for being 20! except im kind of feeling old. i 'advised' this kid and he's absolutely adorable. except hes like 18. which younger guys aren't bad...it just made me feel old. so i'm at work...and i kind of feel yucky. i just fixed a tv that was like 100 years old and covered w/ dust (which, by the way, i am ALLERGIC to!) and now my head hurts. stupid allergies. so, my grandmother is coming to visit this weekend! i'm so happy, i love my nana. i miss my papa...he died this summer. now i have no grandfathers. they both died. i dont like death. like, im not scared, i just dont like it. my mommy sent me a princess birthday card and socks yesterday! i love gettin mail. it makes me feel all special. i also got my halloween costume yesterday. somewhat slutty, but thats okay. its cute. it hardly covers my butt. correction, the skirt is see through. so that would def. not be covering it. but i got black tights and fishnets to go over that, so its all better now! oh i guess i should tell you what i am! i'm a bumblebee. actually the costume is called like sexy honey bee or something. so anyways...yea. i kind of like being single, but its getting old. i want someone too love. except i already love someone. you cant love 2 people can you? not like true love... yea, i dont know. i sometimes feel worthless. like i cant do anything right. i cant even have a relationship. well screw them. who needs them? hmmm...me.
im going to dinner tonight w/ lauryn. shes so sweet. but we havent talked in awhile. she called on monday and asked if we had set a wedding date yet...hmm, so i definately had to update her. okay, im gonna pretend to work at least for a lil while. later gators~betsy
im going to dinner tonight w/ lauryn. shes so sweet. but we havent talked in awhile. she called on monday and asked if we had set a wedding date yet...hmm, so i definately had to update her. okay, im gonna pretend to work at least for a lil while. later gators~betsy