please
i hate myself
and i always will if he wont forgive me. i hate myself for thinking that i can do shit that should NEVER happen. ever. and i hope he'll forgive me and remember that he loves me. i know it hasent been long and most would drop me for what i did. i hate myself for when i get stressed out and make things happen that i know i will regret. why am i like this? i didnt even like him. but i know i love you. i hate adrenaline, i hate car races, i hate the guys i'm not with, i hate my decisions, i hate me. please tell me you can forgive me and we can still be like we were.
i love you