I am right I swear I'm right
I just don't understand guys. What the fuck goes through their heads, honestly. Can someone please tell me what they're thinking?!? This is driving me insane. First I like him more than he likes me, then he starts to like me more, now, I don't even know if I really like him or not. At the end of this month we'll have been together about five months. I feel like we've only been together for like 3 weeks. I haven't figured him out anymore than I had when I first started talking to him. It sucks balls. He is making it much easier for me to be able to break up with him when I go to college. The only thing I really want from him right now is to be acknowledged in his presence. Not that he ignores me, but he doesn't know shit about me. Like I said before, we've been together for a little over four months and he doesn't know what my favorite color is. Look at Dave and Bev they've been together for like 2 weeks and he knows so much about her its ridiculous. I'm jealous. Sorry, I just don't understand him one bit. I mean, does he even listen to me when I talk to him, or does he just go off into his own little world. I feel like such a bitch for complaining so much, but I would never be able to say these things to his face. I would much rather sit in silence and take my anger out on my friends or my family, then I would say anything to him. Noelle, I wish I were as ballsy as you. I want to be able to sit him down and tell him he can fuck off or treat me the right way. Gosh, I HATE boys they suck so much, and then you feel bad for making them feel bad. I HATE BOYS!!!!
On a lighter note, it was a two hour delay today, and one that was much needed I got the extra rest I needed especially since I was out toking it up last night. Yes, I will admit it, finally, I am a stoner. I like to smoke, I don't care who knows not like my life would get any better or worse if people found out I smoke, hell it probably just adds another thing about me to their lists. Anyway, I smoked and went to the mall. I actually felt like I was in a movie where all the high school kids hang out at the mall. It was really kind of cool.
We officially have 18 days until spring break starts and 21 days until we leave for Florida!!!!! I am so excited, like I've only said several times before. I am still debating on whether or not I am going to act like I am single down there. I am trying to put myself in his position and see how I would feel if he acted like he were single in Florida. With the way things are going these days, I'm thinking I wouldn't care either way, he doesn't care what my opinion would be to him if he were going, so why should I care about his.
89 days until graduation!!!!!!!!!!!!! How exciting is that 89 days and I won't have to worry about anymore of the stupid high school drama shit, 89 days and I won't have to worry about homework, 89 days and I move away from all the mother fuckers that have made my life a living hell. 89 days and I am free from the frustration of Corydon. I hate this place, I can't wait to leave. There are those of you I love and you know who you are, the whole three of you who read my journal. Anyway I'm out have a great day, I know I always do
On a lighter note, it was a two hour delay today, and one that was much needed I got the extra rest I needed especially since I was out toking it up last night. Yes, I will admit it, finally, I am a stoner. I like to smoke, I don't care who knows not like my life would get any better or worse if people found out I smoke, hell it probably just adds another thing about me to their lists. Anyway, I smoked and went to the mall. I actually felt like I was in a movie where all the high school kids hang out at the mall. It was really kind of cool.
We officially have 18 days until spring break starts and 21 days until we leave for Florida!!!!! I am so excited, like I've only said several times before. I am still debating on whether or not I am going to act like I am single down there. I am trying to put myself in his position and see how I would feel if he acted like he were single in Florida. With the way things are going these days, I'm thinking I wouldn't care either way, he doesn't care what my opinion would be to him if he were going, so why should I care about his.
89 days until graduation!!!!!!!!!!!!! How exciting is that 89 days and I won't have to worry about anymore of the stupid high school drama shit, 89 days and I won't have to worry about homework, 89 days and I move away from all the mother fuckers that have made my life a living hell. 89 days and I am free from the frustration of Corydon. I hate this place, I can't wait to leave. There are those of you I love and you know who you are, the whole three of you who read my journal. Anyway I'm out have a great day, I know I always do