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[sweetie_pi]

I wanna be that girl he's scared to lose, the one he can't walk away from knowing she's mad at him, the one who he can't fall asleep witout her voice being the last one he hears, the one he wouldn't know what to do without--Why can't i jsut find that certain someone, i keep thinking that i have but i just don't think that i am ever going the make that work...I Just keeping telling myself it is going to work, it has to happen, it has to. That's what keeps a smile on my face just knowinf that it might be possibe. I Have said enough for him to know, but not to muhc to push him away. Why? Why can't this just work out for me just this one time.. I want this so bad, i mean really bad. People are like u know play games with his head and start to like other people, make him come to u. well this summer we didnt hang out as much as we used to and i thought it worked, i was over him. but i saw him jsut one time, tahts all it took, all the feelings taht i thought i lost were back, jsut like that. i told my self, none of these games are going to work because i want him and ONLY him.. Now only if he could hear that i dunno?--
:0(... i am jsut so confused these days.. so I just need to know. am i wasting all my time, cause i wanna believe that i am not wasting my time?