i hate being an older sibling
you know, when i was 13 years old, i was allowed to stay home by myself. but now that my brother is that age, no such luck. it sucks for both of us because he gets no freedom and i have to stay home and babysit him. its rediculous. and i cant go to movie night tonight because of him. he can't even get a friend to let him sleep over at their house because he has like 2 friends. i don't know.. its rediculous. i'm kind of pissed. oh well. i'm stuck at home with a jerk and all my friends are having a good time. gah.
this "vacation" has been nothing but stress. I have to write a 3-4 page paper for english due jan. 3rd and i haven't even started it. i need to have a freaking outline with it too. i hate english. atleast that's the only class that i have an assignment in.
anyway, as soon as the break is over, i have to deal with the musical rehearsals. i'm understudy for Gabriella, which is, i guess, an honor, but i really just wanted to be invisible in the ensemble. the real Gabriella isn't going to be at the tech rehersal, so i have to be the real Gabriella that day for oh, say, 8 to 9 hours. that's terrifying to me. having to get up and sing like a lead infront of all of those people. my mother is convinced that she's going to come and watch that day, but i will refuse to perform if she's there. i can't take her sitting there and watching me. we have a wierd relationship, as i'm sure most "teenagers" do with their parents. i don't know. I just hope that there's not that much pressure. i mean, it's just an understuy role. for the real show, i'm just some random brainiac girl. High School Musical will certainly be a different kind of show than what we're used to.
My mother is also going back to work. she's starting a new law firm with her old boss. So, she's not going to be home very much, so she's trying to convince my dad to let me get a car. I still don't have my license, but i could get it anytime now. actually, i haven't been driving in about 2 months, just because i didn't want to. now i'm going to have to start again. but before i get my license and car or whatever, i have no idea how i'm going to be able to get to all of the musical rehearsals. i'm sure my neighbor who's in the show could take me a few times, but i hate being a burden.
on a different note, i'm on my laptop that i just got for christmas (i had to pay $400 of it) and i hate this keyboard. it will take some time to get used to. the keys are smaller and a lot closer together, and they don't stand up as much as regular keyboards do. they're small and low to the computer's surface. it's making my wrists hurt. actually, only my right wrist. no idea. don't get me wrong, i love my laptop, but that's just annoying. i keep hitting a lot of the wrong keys or just not hitting the keys at all, which is really annoying because im used to typing close to 100 words a minute. it's irritating when you have to keep hitting backspace every few words. gah.
i'll get used to it. . . eventually.
i'm just really mad that i'm stuck at home tonight. and there's nothing on TV. and we don't have any good movies. and my netflix is in transit. gah.
i'm going to go yell at my brother for no reason now. and maybe eat something. maybe. i'm not very hungry, but i need something to do.
<3 Mel
this "vacation" has been nothing but stress. I have to write a 3-4 page paper for english due jan. 3rd and i haven't even started it. i need to have a freaking outline with it too. i hate english. atleast that's the only class that i have an assignment in.
anyway, as soon as the break is over, i have to deal with the musical rehearsals. i'm understudy for Gabriella, which is, i guess, an honor, but i really just wanted to be invisible in the ensemble. the real Gabriella isn't going to be at the tech rehersal, so i have to be the real Gabriella that day for oh, say, 8 to 9 hours. that's terrifying to me. having to get up and sing like a lead infront of all of those people. my mother is convinced that she's going to come and watch that day, but i will refuse to perform if she's there. i can't take her sitting there and watching me. we have a wierd relationship, as i'm sure most "teenagers" do with their parents. i don't know. I just hope that there's not that much pressure. i mean, it's just an understuy role. for the real show, i'm just some random brainiac girl. High School Musical will certainly be a different kind of show than what we're used to.
My mother is also going back to work. she's starting a new law firm with her old boss. So, she's not going to be home very much, so she's trying to convince my dad to let me get a car. I still don't have my license, but i could get it anytime now. actually, i haven't been driving in about 2 months, just because i didn't want to. now i'm going to have to start again. but before i get my license and car or whatever, i have no idea how i'm going to be able to get to all of the musical rehearsals. i'm sure my neighbor who's in the show could take me a few times, but i hate being a burden.
on a different note, i'm on my laptop that i just got for christmas (i had to pay $400 of it) and i hate this keyboard. it will take some time to get used to. the keys are smaller and a lot closer together, and they don't stand up as much as regular keyboards do. they're small and low to the computer's surface. it's making my wrists hurt. actually, only my right wrist. no idea. don't get me wrong, i love my laptop, but that's just annoying. i keep hitting a lot of the wrong keys or just not hitting the keys at all, which is really annoying because im used to typing close to 100 words a minute. it's irritating when you have to keep hitting backspace every few words. gah.
i'll get used to it. . . eventually.
i'm just really mad that i'm stuck at home tonight. and there's nothing on TV. and we don't have any good movies. and my netflix is in transit. gah.
i'm going to go yell at my brother for no reason now. and maybe eat something. maybe. i'm not very hungry, but i need something to do.
<3 Mel