Not Very Understanding

[sweetie0639]

Ummmm lets see, yesterday i spent another whole day at Nikki's. We had a lil hangout session with a whole lotta kids!!! And I saw Gothica for the 3rd time in 2 days lol. I decided to go home that nite 1)cause i worked at 3 and needed a change a clothes 2) I kinda felt liek i was gettin on Nikkis nerves since we had spent a lot of time together

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Not Alone

[alikatstinker28]

Sorry after watching Gothika I just had to make it that and it is what I wanted to tell you anyway. I am glad you got to vent and I am not sure what is going on here but it sounds like 2 people need to talk. I am glad that you don't feel you should change for anyone and that is an important thing to have. The other important thing is to not put all your eggs in one basket. I have a bunch of friends that I don't hang out with very often. We always have fun when we do hang out and that is what makes it special. Take Nikki and I for examble- we hang out when we can but also realize that there is things that come up and other people and places we have to be. Life gets busy and good friends can't always be there 24/7 but even when they can't be next to you they are there for the times that you need them the most. I am in a place in my life that I am totally focusing on family. I mean I hang out with my friends occasionally but I am trying to just focus on me and Colton and growing on a personal level. It sounds like there is a bunch of things you wanted to do like find a new job and things like that and it sounds like this is the perfect chance to take some time for you. Just remember you are the only one that can make yourself happy and the only one you can blame for things not being the way you want. I understand that you didn't have a "perfect" childhood and I can assure you that no one has. We all have our scars and our secrets. My advice to you would be to take what you can from it. Find something positive and grow from that because if you stay angry and hurt you can't grow. Forgive those that hurt you and move forward. Not saying I am the perfect person to take advice from but I have overcome alot of obstacles in my short life and have learned some very important lessons so I like to pass them on when I can. Jumping to conclusions is the worst thing anyone can do and don't believe anyhting until you hear it come from the other persons mouth. You heard first hand how that complicates things form my little hotel experience on friday night. I mean she still hasn't called me to sort things out and all I can say is I guess we really weren't friends or she would have come to me first and wouldn't ahve wanted to leave things this way. Just be careful what you say. Bruises heal but words can haunt you forever....

Re: Not Alone

[sweetie0639]

I couldnt agree more myself. I will admit that i did take the wrong form of action, and that it was a mistake and i can only hope that this kinda mistake will only happen this one time. Good thing im a bright cookie and learn from my mistakes. WE have sorted out the issues i had and am glad that things can pick off where i almost left them. Time liek these show who is really there by your side. I also know that Im the only one to blame on how i feel and its my job to make sure i want to be where i want to be. I go through re-evaluations every night before i go to bed to see where i really wanna be 5 years from now. When it comes down to it i over reacted to someone else's feelings because i was insecure about my own. Im hopeing that i didnt offend anyone. I get so emotional when i see everyone and their familys happy and together because i know that as much as try and beg and pled to my family to be the same way it will never be anywhere close to what id liek to see. As for taking something from the past and growning from it, ive done exactly that, i jus hafta remember that it takes time to grow.....and im definaltely proud of myself for where im at today. Iam one of the most independent people i know cause most people had their parent(s) behind their back 24/7 and i lost that at a very young age. Okay enough of all the mushing "hey-look-at-me-im-all-good" speal. I know my mistake and apologize a million times!!! :o) (god knoes ill have tougher things to deal w/in the future! its jus time to get prepared, cause God wont give me a break until he knoes i can handle whatver obsticle.)