is life really this hard?!?!
is life meant to be this hard? 200some days of schooling each year, working for $$$$, trying to make a living, learning to live without the things you like the most, was it meant to be this way? goodness gracious...lol...each path you choose everyday takes you to another the next. but do some lead back and forth over and over again? everything right now just seems to just keep going in circles. go to school, work, bitch about my car, drink...and then start all over doing the same thing......i enjoy drinking on the weekends it gets pretty fun, most of the time...but i need a change in my daily life.....SOON! It's just beating me down into the ground...wait.......isnt that a song?????? I think it's something similar to Korn's "falling away from me"....lol. crazy shit. i like that song alot thou....i love the HARD ASS shit!
HAHA I used to not care about anything that happened day to day...i dont know why i care so much.....i used to like working, it was soo much fun to me...but now it's just hard on me. it's like the life was sucked out of me over the course of this year. UGH. I want it back, i want to be myself again. I feel like part of me is missing, it's like half of my just got up and walked off. I mean I'm still pretty loud and outgoing, i still like going out and being with a huge group of people, and stuff.....but it's just different now than it used to be. I'm broken and i need to be fixed. HELP!?!?! LOL
One good thing is my Alpine Stars baby pink SHIRT AND sexy HAT....are supposed to be in this weekend.....HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY TO ME, LOVE MY COUSINS...and I get other stuff on my birthday!!!!!! AWWW..exicted for that. And I'm going riding with my daddy soon at the end of this month and we'll be going on a huge family trip too........
.......i wish i could do that...actually i'd be too damn scared....my dad used to be able to do that, i dont know anymore...he prolly still can.....Yay for him....
It's getting late for me right now and if i want to atleast have a little bit of energy tomorrow than that would be great for my self esteem atleast.