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I used to think I was over death. It happens... people die.... we lose the ones we love... the ones that weve come close to...
And I wish I could say that I'm crying unbelievably because he was my best friend. but truth be told.... he wasn't...so i dont understand how im crying so hard and for so long.
no fuck that i do. he was...is...and always be such an amazing person. always about others never himself. probably one of the nicest people ive yet to meet, hes up there. and all i can do is think about all the times hes made me smile for 3 years. prom... walk a thons... just hanging out at school... french classes....the pictures from the year book. he won most stylish... he was so funny. someone like him did not deserve this. this shit is fucking unbelievable.
how can there be a god?! if there is he certainly is the biggest asshole ever. how could a god, that is suppossed to be so loving and kind take someone like that from his friends. and its said that "he took him bc he needed him up there" thats fucking bull shit. WE need him! you have eternity and we only have ONE life... you have FOREVER. this is retarded! we had 19 years... most of us less because weve only known him that long. HOW CAN THERE BE A GOD THAT IS SO CRUEL?
Paul touched all of us and theres no denying that...because he did. Even if no body else liked you, he did. Thats the way it is. You can't even be stand offish and an asshole by saying "I didnt know him so I dont care" and thats the truth. You know it is. He was EVERYONES friend...
Ive had people die before and I was okay... Pauls my breaking point. HE NEVER DESERVED THIS! THIS SHOULDNT HAVE HAPPENED! its like its a movie ya know... but I cant stop... I cant even pause or rewind... and it hurts so real. I cant breath... I cant stop crying...
No one was prepared for this...
No one will ever be prepared for this and its happening...
Its happened. hes gone.
and were all left to deal with it with out one of his famous hugs that made it all better...
no more jokes to make u smile...
This is retarded. If I ever meet God, Im making sure he pays for this. It may be a little selfish... but this is NOT fair!
And I wish I could say that I'm crying unbelievably because he was my best friend. but truth be told.... he wasn't...so i dont understand how im crying so hard and for so long.
no fuck that i do. he was...is...and always be such an amazing person. always about others never himself. probably one of the nicest people ive yet to meet, hes up there. and all i can do is think about all the times hes made me smile for 3 years. prom... walk a thons... just hanging out at school... french classes....the pictures from the year book. he won most stylish... he was so funny. someone like him did not deserve this. this shit is fucking unbelievable.
how can there be a god?! if there is he certainly is the biggest asshole ever. how could a god, that is suppossed to be so loving and kind take someone like that from his friends. and its said that "he took him bc he needed him up there" thats fucking bull shit. WE need him! you have eternity and we only have ONE life... you have FOREVER. this is retarded! we had 19 years... most of us less because weve only known him that long. HOW CAN THERE BE A GOD THAT IS SO CRUEL?
Paul touched all of us and theres no denying that...because he did. Even if no body else liked you, he did. Thats the way it is. You can't even be stand offish and an asshole by saying "I didnt know him so I dont care" and thats the truth. You know it is. He was EVERYONES friend...
Ive had people die before and I was okay... Pauls my breaking point. HE NEVER DESERVED THIS! THIS SHOULDNT HAVE HAPPENED! its like its a movie ya know... but I cant stop... I cant even pause or rewind... and it hurts so real. I cant breath... I cant stop crying...
No one was prepared for this...
No one will ever be prepared for this and its happening...
Its happened. hes gone.
and were all left to deal with it with out one of his famous hugs that made it all better...
no more jokes to make u smile...
This is retarded. If I ever meet God, Im making sure he pays for this. It may be a little selfish... but this is NOT fair!