021: that girl is on fire
It feels like it's been a while since I posted anything.
But the reason I've been scarce is because... well. No way around it. I'm more or less grounded from the computer. I can go about business as usual, hang out with friends when I feel like it, watch TV, abuse my cell phone, so on and so forth... except my time on the computer is very restricted. Dad typically lets me hop on the computer for 2-5 hours (such a fluctuation, I know) on the weekdays, depending on whether or not I get the nerve to ask. Then on weekends I tend to be online most of the day unless my family drags me outside.
So... there's my explanation for that.
BUT HEY. IT'S MEME TIME.
"You know how sometimes people on your friends list post about stuff going on in their life and all of a sudden you think, "Wait a minute? Since when were they working THERE? Since when were they dating HIM/HER? Since when???" And then you wonder how you could have missed all that seemingly pretty standard information, but somehow you feel too ashamed to ask for clarification because it seems like info you should already know? It happens to all of us sometimes.
Please copy the topics below, erase my answers and put yours in their place, and then post it in your journal! Please elaborate on the questions that would benefit from elaboration. One-Word-Answers seldom help anyone out."
1. FIRST NAME
Dana Marie. Sh-Shut up. It's a first name, it just has two parts. :| From what I hear, my parents liked the name 'Dana' from a heroine in some movie who was really brave (totally opposite of my own personality but whatever), and they also liked 'Maria'. So they put both together, but since 'Dana Maria' sounds a little awkward, they left it as just 'Marie'. It's becoming a little bit of a recurring thing in my family now, since my little sister's first name is Aleksa Marie.
I've always been fond of the name 'Marie', but Dana is uncommon enough that I'm pleased with it too. No one ever calls me 'Dana Marie' unless they're angry with me, and just stick with Dana instead. But I've got a few people who like being different and end up calling me Marie instead.
Lovely variations are Danasaur (Ha.), Danamite (Ha. Ha.), Danananananananananana~. ... Yeah.
AGE.
I'm 14. FOUR-TEEN. FOURTEEN. Take a minute to digest that information, since it seems that people rarely believe me or freak out first thing when I tell them. It's not that hard to believe, right? I've got way too much optimism and naivete to be too deep in my teenager years, imo. I'm also pretty immature and... yeah. But that's my opinion. People seem to argue with me on that matter often, though.
Though it's going to change in just a month~ I'll be 15 on May 15! (As I was born in 1995, my favorite number should logically be 5, but it's actually 3. I don't even know.) ... Is that my golden birthday? :o I really can't wait. I'll finally be able to tell my true age when I app at games and will no longer be the 'exception child'. It's a joyous revelation. *A*
LOCATION.
Beautiful, gorgeous, homey, friendly Torrance of Southern California in the United States of America. It's got gorgeous weather since we never get into that many extremes, the high's rarely escalate past 100 degrees and the low's rarely dip lower than... 20's? 30's? Somewhere around there. The place has the strange habit of fluctuating horribly, but it's evened out by the fact that we don't... really have much past those levels. To quote many people that live here, "Seasons? What seasons? WE LIVE IN SO CAL."
But I love my town very, very much. It's a moderately big town where I'm not really able to navigate northern and western torrance, but Southern Torrance really is my favorite. Why? Well, another quote (this one coming from my middle school Vice Principal) would be, "You trip over your feet and you're halfway to the beach." Which is really true! Most schools around the area have a time in the year where the students just walk down to the beach and hang out there for the day. The ocean is wonderful and I can't imagine how some people live without it. It's just... it's such a constant in my life, but there's something about that long strip of ocean blue mixing with sky blue, coupled with the salty sea air and little patch of light as the sun is just dipping down for the night... I can't imagine life without seeing it at least once a month.
Also. Southern California is so big on entertainment, I don't even know where to begin. A ridiculously high number of amusement parks, an even higher number of large shopping complexes (AMERICANA IS GORGEOUS), and... well. Hollywood. Obviously. It's what really makes me want to work in the entertainment biz, if only as a secretary or... something. Idk.
The only downside about Torrance is that I'll never get my White Christmas. ^^;; But... well, the things I give up for this otherwise beautifuland floral town. It's really very impressive that way. It's a very 'hometown' sort of place, where everything is nice and calm. And everything really is very pretty. Unsurprisingly, appearances matter a lot around here and it's a little grating how shallow all of it is, but... well. Everyone here is healthy and fun-loving and active, for the most part. Vanity's got its ups and downs. :|
OCCUPATION.
High school freshman! It's nice to be in high school now, and it really makes me think about the world. Back in middle school, you would hear about things like drugs and alcohol, but... it's another thing entirely to sit in my Biology class and discuss the matter with someone who's done a variety of drugs. It's englightening, but I'll never let go of my stance that one should never, ever try drugs. There's also moments that are so heart-wrenching that I don't know what to do. People go through high school to find out what to do with themselves and when they dream big like saying, "I want to make it in Hollywood", and then they have to tell their parents, and they're so shaken up by the confrontation... I dunno. The hurt comes with the joy, I guess. I'm still trying to find out what I want to do...
Oh. But I should also mention that my peers (in classes with mixed grade levels) have a habit of forgetting that I'm a freshman. I've had to announce in Japanese class multiple times that YES. I AM A FRESHMAN. Worst part was that two of the times, I had to explain that to the teacher.
PARTNER.
I'M FREE. No. Really. That's how I look at it for the moment. I've promised myself that for the entire freshman year, I would reign in my emotions and not fall head-over-heels for some guy that I'd never be able to get.
Not to mention I'm still trying to figure out the fine line between "I have a crush on you." and "I think you're hot." I'M WORKING ON IT. I SWEAR.
KIDS.
None! And... honestly, I'm scared shitless of the idea of pregnancy. It seems so uncomfortable and while it's beautiful in its own right, I don't think I could ever manage dealing with it on a biological factor. I'LL BE BREAKING MY WHAT? IT'LL BE IN MY WHERE? AAAAHHHHHHHH. ;A;
So really, I'm rather sure that if I'm ever to have a child, I will most likely adopt. Because love is love, and everyone could use more of it.
BROTHERS/SISTERS.
I've got this tiny little tyke of a sister. Aleksa Marie. There's an 8-year difference in age, and even though she's 6, I always get this strange notion to call her 4. I actually have to verify her age half the time because... she's such a tiny little thing, as full of joy and energy and questions as she was two years ago. She's a sweetie, for sure. When my parents overlook me, she's always the first one to bring me up and toss me into the conversation. While it often grates on my nerves because most of the time I didn't want to be in the conversation, it's still nice of her to think of me.
There's this strange feeling I have towards her where half the time I really couldn't care less what she's doing so long as she's safe, but then the other half of the time I'd really prefer for her to be close to me. We watch movies all the time, just so that I can have her around and spend time with her, but then I retreat to my room and spend some time by my lonesome. I think it's because she's at that age where everything is a competition and... I'm at the age where my patience is at its shortest. ^^;; Oops.
But don't get me wrong! I love her to bits and couldn't imagine going too long without hearing her yell, "ATE!" (Ah. We'll see that 'Ate' = 'Older Sister' for explanation's sake.)
PETS.
My dearest darling beagle is Sprinkles, who I got and named when I was 8, so don't judge. We normally call her 'Sprinks' or 'Sprinky' most of the time now. She's a cutie who doesn't know any basic commands, but she's got the cutest eyes when she just looks up at you and stares with unabashed curiosity. I love her to no end, because she's just a dear. Whenever I go outside when I'm sad, she follows after me and just... stays by me. I lay down on a lawn chair and she takes a nap right next to me. It's really cute how she'll just follow me whenever I'm having a bad day. It's a beautiful reminder that I'm loved. ;; ♥♥
THEN I've got fourteen-plus lovebirds in an aviary in the backyard that my dad made. We tried naming them in the beginning but there's so many and they looks so alike that... we just gave up, lmfao. BUT I KNOW THAT VERDE IS SOMEWHERE IN THAT CAGE. (Yeah, Spanish colors for their names. Creative, right?) And then there's two rose-breasted cockatoos. One is Sam (who we call Sammy) and the other is Matayo (who we call Matty). Matty's got a marker on his leg so we can tell the difference, though there's the slight difference in their builds since Sammy's a girl and Matty's a boy. They're both really adorable and when they puff up, I have to laugh. You can't try to look menacing and be so pink at the same time. Then there's Heckyl and Jeckyl, who have their own hand-made aviary too. BUT I'M SORRY, YUN. I ASKED DAD BUT HE ACTUALLY FORGOT WHAT KIND OF BIRD THEY WERE. IT'S RIDICULOUS I KNOW.
Lastly, our three African Grey Congo Parrots. We raised them since they were babies, maybe... two weeks old? I remember those times. It must've been... two years ago now. I used to have to feed them through a mix from syringe. We used to have four actually, but one of them flew away. Aha. Ha. $75... But my dad actually started raising them on the thought that eventually when they breed, we could sell their offspring and make a pretty penny out of it. Unsurprisingly they're now parts of the family. I named Chester and Arche, and... Tales of fans, I'm sure you know where that came from. But both of them are darlings. Chester is my baby, though. He coos every time I see him and bends his head towards me so I can give him a good scratch. CUUUUUTE.
Oh. But I've been bitten by the parrots before. Chester and I were on bad terms then. But I think my favorite memory with the birds is going out into the backyard to see my Dad sitting on a chair on one end of the backyard, staring at Chester, who was on the other end and staring back from the ground. So full of pride. I asked what was going on and my Dad answered without breaking the staring contest, "Chester and I are having an argument." Just. Lmfao.
I'm not surprised this section was really long. I live in a bird museum, what with all the aviaries in the backyard.
LIST THE THREE BIGGEST THINGS IN YOUR LIFE RIGHT NOW.
1. HIGH SCHOOL. Obviously? It's a learning experience and I'm trying to get it right. I'm also bartering over summer classes and my schedule for next year right now SO.
2. FASHION. No, I'm serious. I actually think about my clothes now and that alone makes all the difference. My number of shirts doubled over this year and I really need more jackets and accessories to add some more color. :| I could ramble forever and ever about it, really.
3. SOCIAL LIFE. Between school and dance practice and figuring out next year, I have to squeeze in time to hang out with my buddies, both freshman and sophomore.
PARENTS.
... I really don't know what to say here? They're my parents, they're overprotective and won't let me walk around the block by myself but they'll let me loiter around the mall on my own as much as I want. They also infuriate me a lot of the time and make me feel unbelievably lonely, but I look at them and see pieces of myself.
I wouldn't mind growing up to be like my mother, strong and capable in every aspect. She's independent and a go-getter, but she's also influenced by her family and her love for all of us. I wouldn't mind growing up to be like my father for the most part either, though I would rather be without his temper. Otherwise... they're both amazing figures in my life and while they clash on occasion, there is love in this family. That is the unshakeable truth.
FRIENDS.
RL: My best friends are Maya and Chanelle. I put up walls towards anyone and everyone that I meet, and I do everything I can to make it seem like I achieve perfection or the closest thing to it. I am humble, I am obedient, I am distant, and there's just the hint of snark and wit in there to make things interesting. Maya... I've known Maya since Elementary school. We met through mutual friends and... aren't even really sure where we began to hang out. But as time progressed, Maya still stuck by with me. Nothing about her particularly made her stand out as a friend, except for the fact that she was always there. Through the years, Maya made herself available to me whenever possible and she's been a constant in my life ever since. She's had her ups-and-downs in the views of our mutual friends, but I've done everything I can to assist her and support her. She has her way of doing things and bringing a smile to people's faces. I remember a while ago when I was annoyed with her, if only because she was annoying all of our mutual friends. But even then, I would never lie to Maya's face. I confronted her about it and talked things through with her, that's when I realized that... Maya is irreplaceable to me. No one knows me better and no one takes my bluntness and honesty with more consideration.
Chanelle... Chanelle is someone that I got close to just last year. It was a rather rapid change and that still catches me off-guard. I guess that's because while Maya had a bunch of little moments over the years to get to know me, Chanelle makes use of every day to spur some sort of meaningful conversation with me. It's filled with a lot of laughter and conspiracy theories, sure, but we also talk about the more serious stuff which... really means a lot to me. Very few people can coax the details of my past friendships out of me and Chanelle managed to bring it up through her own similar experiences. She's very supportive and energetic about the things she chooses to focus on, and I really think that I should blame and thank her for the fact that I'm so much more socially active now and a fair amount of self-confidence comes from her too. She deals with my honesty and advice rather well too, which I appreciate. I don't believe she's ever lied to me and that's... that's always a bonus. There are a few times where she's pulled a prank or two on me where I've been angry beyond words, but it typically ends up being fine in a few hours, ahaha. It's a strange relationship, but I wouldn't change it for the world.
Now... as for who I normally hang out with? ... Males, really. Guys are so much easier to click with, in my opinion. I've found that in a crowd of girls that I'm familiar with, I end up making most of the jokes and crude implications that leave them laughing. It's a nice little ego boost, but it kind of... gets boring after a while because everything falls into routine. When I go talk with the guys, things are a lot more spontaneous and random. I end up having to catch up in the conversations and the point of conversation changes often. They don't get emotionally hurt when I start tossing out half-hearted insults and it's a little reassuring. Also, it's so much easier to find gamers among guys than if you were to go digging through a group of girls. Justen is, to this day, the only person IRL I've ever been really able to dork out about the Tales of series with. It was ridiculously fun, especially since we had different opinions over ToS2 and as;dlfjdf. I DUNNO. In my school, I'd rather hang out with the guys than girls. I fit in better with the guys, simple matter of fact.
LIVEJOURNAL: FOR THE RECORD, I love everyone on my f-list. There's a reason why it's my friends list, after all. But a few notable mentions...
Cal dear. ♥ Typically the first person to greet me every time I hop online and as;fljsdf that immediately brightens up my day like you have no idea, love. ;; ♥♥ My dearest tag-team partner and I can't even begin to say how much I love her without rambling to no end. Our semi-IC relationship is so much fun and... as;ldjf I DON'T KNOW, DARLING. I JUST LOVE YOU BY THE ROTT AND YOU'RE THE BREAK TO MY SHARON ALWAYS. Joint posts have never been more enjoyable. And then when we're not talking about RP or fandom, general discussions are often just as fun and... gosh, I just don't know where I'd be without you. ♥
Yun darling. ♥ This'll just be more rambling but as;ldjf she is my partner in crime now and forever. We've had a variety of interaction by now and all of it was just... ridiculous. XD I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'D DO WITHOUT YUN. Just talking to her is like a learning lesson because I always find out something new and interesting every time we talk. Admittedly we don't talk all too often, but it makes the times we do all the more precious. ♥ I worry all the time that I'm bothering her, but... WHAT CAN I SAY? I'm just timid that way. XD
Kat love. ♥ SHE WHO IS MY BIG SISTER. ;A; SHE WHO IS MY ROLE MODEL. ;A; SHE WHO HAS ENABLED MORE MORE THAN ANYONE ELSE EVER. What happened to those daily conversations, idk. But that's perfectly fine because whenever we do talk, it ends up into a discussion of something pretty awesome. She's guided me through life on many occasions and it's very reassuring. I will support her through anything and everything because she's only continued to do the same for me through all these months. ♥ I'd be very lost if I didn't have Kat, and that is a fact.
MY DEAREST PH FAMILY! ♥ This would be Cal, Yun, Kat, January, Ryuko, Numnums, Christine, Annabelle, Lena, and Winger. ♥ Admittedly we've lost some of our members but they will always be part of the family. Because you can never leave a family, you can only add to the love. So in our wonderful PH Family Dinner Table where we serve copypasta, I adore each and every member. And honestly? I'd love to make a seating chart one day. Just for fun. Honestly, the insanity that we go through is hilarious ( THIS POST WILL FOREVER BE ONE OF MY FAVORITES) and... at the risk of giving a bit too much praise (which is impossible since you all deserve all the praise in the world) the group is just so much FUN. Because it gets out of hand and we're so random and I DON'T KNOW. I think it's just all kinds of amazing.
Of course, unofficial members of the PH family are Jae and Sia. ♥ I love the both of you dearly and find you both to be absolutely amazing. ♥ MUCH LOVE TO THE BOTH OF YOU.
And that should be it.
I'M KIDDING. LAE, DON'T HURT ME. I could never forget Lae. :| LET'S SEE. We've known each other for a bit over a year now, huh? Admittedly our relationship has fluctuated a bit over that time. XD But as standing, I am proud to be your wingman and love you dearly. ♥ Talking to you is always fun and leads to some pretty insane things. Yes, aprigen is a nice example. I don't regret a thing and I'm always here for you through anything and everything. I'll support you always and will never have anything but the utmost faith in you. Even if you do worry me on occasion, I'll always be around to tie you down before you overwhelm yourself. :| It's just what I'm here for. ♥ MUCH LOVE.
I also love everyone else on my f-list. ♥ I'll come up with titles for you all eventually.
WHOA, THAT WAS A LOT TO TYPE.
But the reason I've been scarce is because... well. No way around it. I'm more or less grounded from the computer. I can go about business as usual, hang out with friends when I feel like it, watch TV, abuse my cell phone, so on and so forth... except my time on the computer is very restricted. Dad typically lets me hop on the computer for 2-5 hours (such a fluctuation, I know) on the weekdays, depending on whether or not I get the nerve to ask. Then on weekends I tend to be online most of the day unless my family drags me outside.
So... there's my explanation for that.
BUT HEY. IT'S MEME TIME.
"You know how sometimes people on your friends list post about stuff going on in their life and all of a sudden you think, "Wait a minute? Since when were they working THERE? Since when were they dating HIM/HER? Since when???" And then you wonder how you could have missed all that seemingly pretty standard information, but somehow you feel too ashamed to ask for clarification because it seems like info you should already know? It happens to all of us sometimes.
Please copy the topics below, erase my answers and put yours in their place, and then post it in your journal! Please elaborate on the questions that would benefit from elaboration. One-Word-Answers seldom help anyone out."
1. FIRST NAME
Dana Marie. Sh-Shut up. It's a first name, it just has two parts. :| From what I hear, my parents liked the name 'Dana' from a heroine in some movie who was really brave (totally opposite of my own personality but whatever), and they also liked 'Maria'. So they put both together, but since 'Dana Maria' sounds a little awkward, they left it as just 'Marie'. It's becoming a little bit of a recurring thing in my family now, since my little sister's first name is Aleksa Marie.
I've always been fond of the name 'Marie', but Dana is uncommon enough that I'm pleased with it too. No one ever calls me 'Dana Marie' unless they're angry with me, and just stick with Dana instead. But I've got a few people who like being different and end up calling me Marie instead.
Lovely variations are Danasaur (Ha.), Danamite (Ha. Ha.), Danananananananananana~. ... Yeah.
AGE.
I'm 14. FOUR-TEEN. FOURTEEN. Take a minute to digest that information, since it seems that people rarely believe me or freak out first thing when I tell them. It's not that hard to believe, right? I've got way too much optimism and naivete to be too deep in my teenager years, imo. I'm also pretty immature and... yeah. But that's my opinion. People seem to argue with me on that matter often, though.
Though it's going to change in just a month~ I'll be 15 on May 15! (As I was born in 1995, my favorite number should logically be 5, but it's actually 3. I don't even know.) ... Is that my golden birthday? :o I really can't wait. I'll finally be able to tell my true age when I app at games and will no longer be the 'exception child'. It's a joyous revelation. *A*
LOCATION.
Beautiful, gorgeous, homey, friendly Torrance of Southern California in the United States of America. It's got gorgeous weather since we never get into that many extremes, the high's rarely escalate past 100 degrees and the low's rarely dip lower than... 20's? 30's? Somewhere around there. The place has the strange habit of fluctuating horribly, but it's evened out by the fact that we don't... really have much past those levels. To quote many people that live here, "Seasons? What seasons? WE LIVE IN SO CAL."
But I love my town very, very much. It's a moderately big town where I'm not really able to navigate northern and western torrance, but Southern Torrance really is my favorite. Why? Well, another quote (this one coming from my middle school Vice Principal) would be, "You trip over your feet and you're halfway to the beach." Which is really true! Most schools around the area have a time in the year where the students just walk down to the beach and hang out there for the day. The ocean is wonderful and I can't imagine how some people live without it. It's just... it's such a constant in my life, but there's something about that long strip of ocean blue mixing with sky blue, coupled with the salty sea air and little patch of light as the sun is just dipping down for the night... I can't imagine life without seeing it at least once a month.
Also. Southern California is so big on entertainment, I don't even know where to begin. A ridiculously high number of amusement parks, an even higher number of large shopping complexes (AMERICANA IS GORGEOUS), and... well. Hollywood. Obviously. It's what really makes me want to work in the entertainment biz, if only as a secretary or... something. Idk.
The only downside about Torrance is that I'll never get my White Christmas. ^^;; But... well, the things I give up for this otherwise beautifuland floral town. It's really very impressive that way. It's a very 'hometown' sort of place, where everything is nice and calm. And everything really is very pretty. Unsurprisingly, appearances matter a lot around here and it's a little grating how shallow all of it is, but... well. Everyone here is healthy and fun-loving and active, for the most part. Vanity's got its ups and downs. :|
OCCUPATION.
High school freshman! It's nice to be in high school now, and it really makes me think about the world. Back in middle school, you would hear about things like drugs and alcohol, but... it's another thing entirely to sit in my Biology class and discuss the matter with someone who's done a variety of drugs. It's englightening, but I'll never let go of my stance that one should never, ever try drugs. There's also moments that are so heart-wrenching that I don't know what to do. People go through high school to find out what to do with themselves and when they dream big like saying, "I want to make it in Hollywood", and then they have to tell their parents, and they're so shaken up by the confrontation... I dunno. The hurt comes with the joy, I guess. I'm still trying to find out what I want to do...
Oh. But I should also mention that my peers (in classes with mixed grade levels) have a habit of forgetting that I'm a freshman. I've had to announce in Japanese class multiple times that YES. I AM A FRESHMAN. Worst part was that two of the times, I had to explain that to the teacher.
PARTNER.
I'M FREE. No. Really. That's how I look at it for the moment. I've promised myself that for the entire freshman year, I would reign in my emotions and not fall head-over-heels for some guy that I'd never be able to get.
Not to mention I'm still trying to figure out the fine line between "I have a crush on you." and "I think you're hot." I'M WORKING ON IT. I SWEAR.
KIDS.
None! And... honestly, I'm scared shitless of the idea of pregnancy. It seems so uncomfortable and while it's beautiful in its own right, I don't think I could ever manage dealing with it on a biological factor. I'LL BE BREAKING MY WHAT? IT'LL BE IN MY WHERE? AAAAHHHHHHHH. ;A;
So really, I'm rather sure that if I'm ever to have a child, I will most likely adopt. Because love is love, and everyone could use more of it.
BROTHERS/SISTERS.
I've got this tiny little tyke of a sister. Aleksa Marie. There's an 8-year difference in age, and even though she's 6, I always get this strange notion to call her 4. I actually have to verify her age half the time because... she's such a tiny little thing, as full of joy and energy and questions as she was two years ago. She's a sweetie, for sure. When my parents overlook me, she's always the first one to bring me up and toss me into the conversation. While it often grates on my nerves because most of the time I didn't want to be in the conversation, it's still nice of her to think of me.
There's this strange feeling I have towards her where half the time I really couldn't care less what she's doing so long as she's safe, but then the other half of the time I'd really prefer for her to be close to me. We watch movies all the time, just so that I can have her around and spend time with her, but then I retreat to my room and spend some time by my lonesome. I think it's because she's at that age where everything is a competition and... I'm at the age where my patience is at its shortest. ^^;; Oops.
But don't get me wrong! I love her to bits and couldn't imagine going too long without hearing her yell, "ATE!" (Ah. We'll see that 'Ate' = 'Older Sister' for explanation's sake.)
PETS.
My dearest darling beagle is Sprinkles, who I got and named when I was 8, so don't judge. We normally call her 'Sprinks' or 'Sprinky' most of the time now. She's a cutie who doesn't know any basic commands, but she's got the cutest eyes when she just looks up at you and stares with unabashed curiosity. I love her to no end, because she's just a dear. Whenever I go outside when I'm sad, she follows after me and just... stays by me. I lay down on a lawn chair and she takes a nap right next to me. It's really cute how she'll just follow me whenever I'm having a bad day. It's a beautiful reminder that I'm loved. ;; ♥♥
THEN I've got fourteen-plus lovebirds in an aviary in the backyard that my dad made. We tried naming them in the beginning but there's so many and they looks so alike that... we just gave up, lmfao. BUT I KNOW THAT VERDE IS SOMEWHERE IN THAT CAGE. (Yeah, Spanish colors for their names. Creative, right?) And then there's two rose-breasted cockatoos. One is Sam (who we call Sammy) and the other is Matayo (who we call Matty). Matty's got a marker on his leg so we can tell the difference, though there's the slight difference in their builds since Sammy's a girl and Matty's a boy. They're both really adorable and when they puff up, I have to laugh. You can't try to look menacing and be so pink at the same time. Then there's Heckyl and Jeckyl, who have their own hand-made aviary too. BUT I'M SORRY, YUN. I ASKED DAD BUT HE ACTUALLY FORGOT WHAT KIND OF BIRD THEY WERE. IT'S RIDICULOUS I KNOW.
Lastly, our three African Grey Congo Parrots. We raised them since they were babies, maybe... two weeks old? I remember those times. It must've been... two years ago now. I used to have to feed them through a mix from syringe. We used to have four actually, but one of them flew away. Aha. Ha. $75... But my dad actually started raising them on the thought that eventually when they breed, we could sell their offspring and make a pretty penny out of it. Unsurprisingly they're now parts of the family. I named Chester and Arche, and... Tales of fans, I'm sure you know where that came from. But both of them are darlings. Chester is my baby, though. He coos every time I see him and bends his head towards me so I can give him a good scratch. CUUUUUTE.
Oh. But I've been bitten by the parrots before. Chester and I were on bad terms then. But I think my favorite memory with the birds is going out into the backyard to see my Dad sitting on a chair on one end of the backyard, staring at Chester, who was on the other end and staring back from the ground. So full of pride. I asked what was going on and my Dad answered without breaking the staring contest, "Chester and I are having an argument." Just. Lmfao.
I'm not surprised this section was really long. I live in a bird museum, what with all the aviaries in the backyard.
LIST THE THREE BIGGEST THINGS IN YOUR LIFE RIGHT NOW.
1. HIGH SCHOOL. Obviously? It's a learning experience and I'm trying to get it right. I'm also bartering over summer classes and my schedule for next year right now SO.
2. FASHION. No, I'm serious. I actually think about my clothes now and that alone makes all the difference. My number of shirts doubled over this year and I really need more jackets and accessories to add some more color. :| I could ramble forever and ever about it, really.
3. SOCIAL LIFE. Between school and dance practice and figuring out next year, I have to squeeze in time to hang out with my buddies, both freshman and sophomore.
PARENTS.
... I really don't know what to say here? They're my parents, they're overprotective and won't let me walk around the block by myself but they'll let me loiter around the mall on my own as much as I want. They also infuriate me a lot of the time and make me feel unbelievably lonely, but I look at them and see pieces of myself.
I wouldn't mind growing up to be like my mother, strong and capable in every aspect. She's independent and a go-getter, but she's also influenced by her family and her love for all of us. I wouldn't mind growing up to be like my father for the most part either, though I would rather be without his temper. Otherwise... they're both amazing figures in my life and while they clash on occasion, there is love in this family. That is the unshakeable truth.
FRIENDS.
RL: My best friends are Maya and Chanelle. I put up walls towards anyone and everyone that I meet, and I do everything I can to make it seem like I achieve perfection or the closest thing to it. I am humble, I am obedient, I am distant, and there's just the hint of snark and wit in there to make things interesting. Maya... I've known Maya since Elementary school. We met through mutual friends and... aren't even really sure where we began to hang out. But as time progressed, Maya still stuck by with me. Nothing about her particularly made her stand out as a friend, except for the fact that she was always there. Through the years, Maya made herself available to me whenever possible and she's been a constant in my life ever since. She's had her ups-and-downs in the views of our mutual friends, but I've done everything I can to assist her and support her. She has her way of doing things and bringing a smile to people's faces. I remember a while ago when I was annoyed with her, if only because she was annoying all of our mutual friends. But even then, I would never lie to Maya's face. I confronted her about it and talked things through with her, that's when I realized that... Maya is irreplaceable to me. No one knows me better and no one takes my bluntness and honesty with more consideration.
Chanelle... Chanelle is someone that I got close to just last year. It was a rather rapid change and that still catches me off-guard. I guess that's because while Maya had a bunch of little moments over the years to get to know me, Chanelle makes use of every day to spur some sort of meaningful conversation with me. It's filled with a lot of laughter and conspiracy theories, sure, but we also talk about the more serious stuff which... really means a lot to me. Very few people can coax the details of my past friendships out of me and Chanelle managed to bring it up through her own similar experiences. She's very supportive and energetic about the things she chooses to focus on, and I really think that I should blame and thank her for the fact that I'm so much more socially active now and a fair amount of self-confidence comes from her too. She deals with my honesty and advice rather well too, which I appreciate. I don't believe she's ever lied to me and that's... that's always a bonus. There are a few times where she's pulled a prank or two on me where I've been angry beyond words, but it typically ends up being fine in a few hours, ahaha. It's a strange relationship, but I wouldn't change it for the world.
Now... as for who I normally hang out with? ... Males, really. Guys are so much easier to click with, in my opinion. I've found that in a crowd of girls that I'm familiar with, I end up making most of the jokes and crude implications that leave them laughing. It's a nice little ego boost, but it kind of... gets boring after a while because everything falls into routine. When I go talk with the guys, things are a lot more spontaneous and random. I end up having to catch up in the conversations and the point of conversation changes often. They don't get emotionally hurt when I start tossing out half-hearted insults and it's a little reassuring. Also, it's so much easier to find gamers among guys than if you were to go digging through a group of girls. Justen is, to this day, the only person IRL I've ever been really able to dork out about the Tales of series with. It was ridiculously fun, especially since we had different opinions over ToS2 and as;dlfjdf. I DUNNO. In my school, I'd rather hang out with the guys than girls. I fit in better with the guys, simple matter of fact.
LIVEJOURNAL: FOR THE RECORD, I love everyone on my f-list. There's a reason why it's my friends list, after all. But a few notable mentions...
Cal dear. ♥ Typically the first person to greet me every time I hop online and as;fljsdf that immediately brightens up my day like you have no idea, love. ;; ♥♥ My dearest tag-team partner and I can't even begin to say how much I love her without rambling to no end. Our semi-IC relationship is so much fun and... as;ldjf I DON'T KNOW, DARLING. I JUST LOVE YOU BY THE ROTT AND YOU'RE THE BREAK TO MY SHARON ALWAYS. Joint posts have never been more enjoyable. And then when we're not talking about RP or fandom, general discussions are often just as fun and... gosh, I just don't know where I'd be without you. ♥
Yun darling. ♥ This'll just be more rambling but as;ldjf she is my partner in crime now and forever. We've had a variety of interaction by now and all of it was just... ridiculous. XD I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'D DO WITHOUT YUN. Just talking to her is like a learning lesson because I always find out something new and interesting every time we talk. Admittedly we don't talk all too often, but it makes the times we do all the more precious. ♥ I worry all the time that I'm bothering her, but... WHAT CAN I SAY? I'm just timid that way. XD
Kat love. ♥ SHE WHO IS MY BIG SISTER. ;A; SHE WHO IS MY ROLE MODEL. ;A; SHE WHO HAS ENABLED MORE MORE THAN ANYONE ELSE EVER. What happened to those daily conversations, idk. But that's perfectly fine because whenever we do talk, it ends up into a discussion of something pretty awesome. She's guided me through life on many occasions and it's very reassuring. I will support her through anything and everything because she's only continued to do the same for me through all these months. ♥ I'd be very lost if I didn't have Kat, and that is a fact.
MY DEAREST PH FAMILY! ♥ This would be Cal, Yun, Kat, January, Ryuko, Numnums, Christine, Annabelle, Lena, and Winger. ♥ Admittedly we've lost some of our members but they will always be part of the family. Because you can never leave a family, you can only add to the love. So in our wonderful PH Family Dinner Table where we serve copypasta, I adore each and every member. And honestly? I'd love to make a seating chart one day. Just for fun. Honestly, the insanity that we go through is hilarious ( THIS POST WILL FOREVER BE ONE OF MY FAVORITES) and... at the risk of giving a bit too much praise (which is impossible since you all deserve all the praise in the world) the group is just so much FUN. Because it gets out of hand and we're so random and I DON'T KNOW. I think it's just all kinds of amazing.
Of course, unofficial members of the PH family are Jae and Sia. ♥ I love the both of you dearly and find you both to be absolutely amazing. ♥ MUCH LOVE TO THE BOTH OF YOU.
And that should be it.
I'M KIDDING. LAE, DON'T HURT ME. I could never forget Lae. :| LET'S SEE. We've known each other for a bit over a year now, huh? Admittedly our relationship has fluctuated a bit over that time. XD But as standing, I am proud to be your wingman and love you dearly. ♥ Talking to you is always fun and leads to some pretty insane things. Yes, aprigen is a nice example. I don't regret a thing and I'm always here for you through anything and everything. I'll support you always and will never have anything but the utmost faith in you. Even if you do worry me on occasion, I'll always be around to tie you down before you overwhelm yourself. :| It's just what I'm here for. ♥ MUCH LOVE.
I also love everyone else on my f-list. ♥ I'll come up with titles for you all eventually.
WHOA, THAT WAS A LOT TO TYPE.