088: regret it in the morning
... I feel awful because I shouldn't be bothered by this but I am. Chemistry Honors, not my best subject, but I'm keeping up. My seat partner is a freshman girl who is sooooo cute and she's so peppy in the morning and I really admire that. She's very upbeat and talkative, though she seems to have no filter on what goes through her mouth. I'll help her with all the problems, but then when I don't have an answer, she'll pretty much have a personality 180 and say, "WELL, you should probably go ask someone then!" ... I-I'm sorry, but I don't ask for help. I'm stubborn to the point that I feel inferior when I ask someone for help. Crazy, yeah. But I will work on it by myself until I come up with the right answer.
Now I like this girl, I do. She's cute and happy, and she's very determined. She wants the right answer and the most points possible! ... but then she pities me when I was the one to help her and then I kind of have a "... excuse me?" moment. Kinda... lame of me. I should be glad that she's looking out for me too, but I guess... just that tone... and having someone lose even the slightest bit of faith in me? It just... It drives me crazy, I won't even lie.
But yes, that should be enough to cover that. And then there's some RL drama where we're finally getting a conclusion to something that's been going on for the past 3 years. Friend A and Friend B were dating once upon a time. They broke up, but they kept talking to each other. Friend A seems to be really interested in Friend B and buys her things, often talking about her, and is always going crazy whenever they fight. Lately, they've been fighting more often and he tells me that she's pretty much destroyed his reputation and his life. Friend A is debating completely cutting off ties with her like her last boyfriend did, under the belief that Friend B was two-faced. He also thinks that Friend B's best friend is kind of a total bitch.
.... meanwhile, I'm in Japanese class, listening to him and trying to understand the situation. I'm doing everything I can to keep from telling him "Cut off all ties with her" and "Try to amend the situation." Because the first could possibly hurt Friend B and the second will likely lead to further humiliation for Friend A. I care about both of them, and I admit that Friend B does have her moments where she's a little... yes. Two-faced. However I think that it's no one's influence, and her new best friend does indeed have something of an attitude and is pretty mouthy, but I think she's very sweet in the right situation! Maybe she's just trying to take advantage of someone's kindness, but I... I don't know. She has moments where she's a little obnoxious, but when she needs something, she's very sincere about it and then she'll give you her opinion and advice on things she knows about. So I can't say I approve of Friend A talking badly about Friend B's best friend that way...
But then again, I've always been pretty tolerable. I don't know, my policy is to be as kind and generous as possible to everyone that needs something from me, and... to well, give people the benefit of the doubt. I do what I can to help and I guess that maybe the kindness I get in return is just... a result? I dislike negativity, so all this bickering within social groups... It makes me a little sad. It's not even my problem, but I do give advice to people when they tell me their problems. Then I'm afraid that I'm going to tell them the wrong thing... I don't want to have the people who come to me for guidance end up on the wrong path because of my negligence and bias to the situation.
... now on the less serious side of things. RP. I won't be apping any more characters until early to mid-October since I don't to cut it too close with Namie's app and wait until the 14th. When I had some free time in Pre-Calculus today, I ended up working on a comprehensive list of all the players (and reserves and want-to-be players) on both the DRRR cast and the Pandora Hearts cast. Looks like the Pandora Hearts cast (not including its aspiring candidates) has two more members than the Durarara cast (including its aspiring candidates). Then I went more detailed and starting adding in the timezones that I am aware of. Then I went into further detail by putting in characters and their IC relations, as well as the OOC relations of the muns that I was aware of. Then I moved on to keep a record of who has contact with each other besides AIM and LJPM, as well as who is active in chatrooms.
I'm not even a part of the Durarara cast yet, what is this. I guess my secretary-like ways are catching up to me. It should be easy enough to play Namie on that case.
Aaand on that note, all somarium Pandora Hearts castmates on my f-list, I will be putting up a plotting post on the OOC comm this weekend. It would be highly appreciated if you could at least drop by to look at it, perhaps get a few opinions in. It's to help organize our cast a bit better since we have such an insane number of us at this point, f-fff. It would be ridiculous to expect that we could all get in a chatroom and get much done. Hopefully that won't be too much of a problem and... okay, this really long post is done now. ♥
Now I like this girl, I do. She's cute and happy, and she's very determined. She wants the right answer and the most points possible! ... but then she pities me when I was the one to help her and then I kind of have a "... excuse me?" moment. Kinda... lame of me. I should be glad that she's looking out for me too, but I guess... just that tone... and having someone lose even the slightest bit of faith in me? It just... It drives me crazy, I won't even lie.
But yes, that should be enough to cover that. And then there's some RL drama where we're finally getting a conclusion to something that's been going on for the past 3 years. Friend A and Friend B were dating once upon a time. They broke up, but they kept talking to each other. Friend A seems to be really interested in Friend B and buys her things, often talking about her, and is always going crazy whenever they fight. Lately, they've been fighting more often and he tells me that she's pretty much destroyed his reputation and his life. Friend A is debating completely cutting off ties with her like her last boyfriend did, under the belief that Friend B was two-faced. He also thinks that Friend B's best friend is kind of a total bitch.
.... meanwhile, I'm in Japanese class, listening to him and trying to understand the situation. I'm doing everything I can to keep from telling him "Cut off all ties with her" and "Try to amend the situation." Because the first could possibly hurt Friend B and the second will likely lead to further humiliation for Friend A. I care about both of them, and I admit that Friend B does have her moments where she's a little... yes. Two-faced. However I think that it's no one's influence, and her new best friend does indeed have something of an attitude and is pretty mouthy, but I think she's very sweet in the right situation! Maybe she's just trying to take advantage of someone's kindness, but I... I don't know. She has moments where she's a little obnoxious, but when she needs something, she's very sincere about it and then she'll give you her opinion and advice on things she knows about. So I can't say I approve of Friend A talking badly about Friend B's best friend that way...
But then again, I've always been pretty tolerable. I don't know, my policy is to be as kind and generous as possible to everyone that needs something from me, and... to well, give people the benefit of the doubt. I do what I can to help and I guess that maybe the kindness I get in return is just... a result? I dislike negativity, so all this bickering within social groups... It makes me a little sad. It's not even my problem, but I do give advice to people when they tell me their problems. Then I'm afraid that I'm going to tell them the wrong thing... I don't want to have the people who come to me for guidance end up on the wrong path because of my negligence and bias to the situation.
... now on the less serious side of things. RP. I won't be apping any more characters until early to mid-October since I don't to cut it too close with Namie's app and wait until the 14th. When I had some free time in Pre-Calculus today, I ended up working on a comprehensive list of all the players (and reserves and want-to-be players) on both the DRRR cast and the Pandora Hearts cast. Looks like the Pandora Hearts cast (not including its aspiring candidates) has two more members than the Durarara cast (including its aspiring candidates). Then I went more detailed and starting adding in the timezones that I am aware of. Then I went into further detail by putting in characters and their IC relations, as well as the OOC relations of the muns that I was aware of. Then I moved on to keep a record of who has contact with each other besides AIM and LJPM, as well as who is active in chatrooms.
I'm not even a part of the Durarara cast yet, what is this. I guess my secretary-like ways are catching up to me. It should be easy enough to play Namie on that case.
Aaand on that note, all somarium Pandora Hearts castmates on my f-list, I will be putting up a plotting post on the OOC comm this weekend. It would be highly appreciated if you could at least drop by to look at it, perhaps get a few opinions in. It's to help organize our cast a bit better since we have such an insane number of us at this point, f-fff. It would be ridiculous to expect that we could all get in a chatroom and get much done. Hopefully that won't be too much of a problem and... okay, this really long post is done now. ♥