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so yah. its 10:53 am, and I am watching Teletubbies..dont ask. Although it is quite comical, and I bet it is much better if you are on drugs, I would never let my child watch this. I remember in high school when i was friends with Jesse, and his friend Jonah, who looked like a crazy black lady, would do impressions of them and the sunshine on the show....funny shit.
So I haven't written in awhile. Healthwise, I have no freaking idea what is going on. I drove home on Tuesday because my mom made a doctors appt for me Wednesday morning. Stayed home Tuesday night, got up early on Wednesday and went to the doc. She is dumbfouded by what is wrong with me, so she took a throat culture, felt my tummy, listened to my heart, took my BP, basically normal shit. She said the thraot culture came back negative, which I already knew it would, so then she sent me over to the lab to get blood drawn. So I am thinking they are gonna take a little blood. They ended up taking about 10 vials. Everytime the tech put a new vial onto the needle, she would push the needle into my arm further, let me tell ya, it didn't tickle. So now i have a huge bruise on my arm...pretty. Went home for the rest of the day, did my laundry, hung with mom, then around 3 I headed back to Alfred. Got back to Alfred around 5:30.
When I got back here, Michelle had IM'd me and told me she is not dancing on Friday, but our shirts came in, and she had mine. So Michelle, Meg, and Ellen came over. Michelle dropped of my shirt. OMG they are SO hot....they actually make it look like I have boobs !!!!! So Michelle left, and Meg and Ellen stayed. We all went down to Carlos's apt to make the final CD for Friday...we were supposed to go to the U and dance by 9:30...we were at Carlos's until 12. We have the CD now though, and practice tonight is going to be a BITCH.
So last night I had to sit duty, Elliot came over. He is starting to get on my nerves. Technically we are not together, but we are. I am not seeing anyone else, and neither is he, but I dunno if I want to jump back into anything so soon. The other night when I was home, he called me 3 times in a 2 hour period. I didn't mind talking to him, but when I told him I might have to leave Alfred, he was like "Well don't worry about us, we will be fine, I will come see you all the time" UMMMMMMMMMMM...NO! There is no "us" and if I leave Alfred, I leave him with it. I don't plan on staying with him past May either. I have shit to do this summer, and I see him as a problem.
Some other stuff went down when I was at home too. So Sarah and I were at the mall, out to dinner, and she goes...."Damen IM'd me on my b-day" i was like SHUT THE FUCK UP!! I couldn't believe it. I didn't even know he still had her screename. It hurt me cause he could talk to my sis and not me. She blocked him though, and told my mom, and my mom was like...Don't tell Becky, it will only add to her anger. It did. So i text messaged him and told her to leave my sis and me alone. After talking to Elliot that night though, I just wanted to talk to someone who really knew me....So I text messaged Damen to see if he would answer...and he did, and he was nice. So we ended up talking on the phone for about a half hour, and then we got off. For the first time I finally felt satisfied. Like I didn't try to keep him on the phone, I didn't talk about why we broke up, anything. I am really starting to look at him as a friend, but someone I will always care for. We have talked and text messaged since then...but nothing major. It's nice to see I have moved on...just not to other guys, just that i am stronger than i used to be.
So I haven't written in awhile. Healthwise, I have no freaking idea what is going on. I drove home on Tuesday because my mom made a doctors appt for me Wednesday morning. Stayed home Tuesday night, got up early on Wednesday and went to the doc. She is dumbfouded by what is wrong with me, so she took a throat culture, felt my tummy, listened to my heart, took my BP, basically normal shit. She said the thraot culture came back negative, which I already knew it would, so then she sent me over to the lab to get blood drawn. So I am thinking they are gonna take a little blood. They ended up taking about 10 vials. Everytime the tech put a new vial onto the needle, she would push the needle into my arm further, let me tell ya, it didn't tickle. So now i have a huge bruise on my arm...pretty. Went home for the rest of the day, did my laundry, hung with mom, then around 3 I headed back to Alfred. Got back to Alfred around 5:30.
When I got back here, Michelle had IM'd me and told me she is not dancing on Friday, but our shirts came in, and she had mine. So Michelle, Meg, and Ellen came over. Michelle dropped of my shirt. OMG they are SO hot....they actually make it look like I have boobs !!!!! So Michelle left, and Meg and Ellen stayed. We all went down to Carlos's apt to make the final CD for Friday...we were supposed to go to the U and dance by 9:30...we were at Carlos's until 12. We have the CD now though, and practice tonight is going to be a BITCH.
So last night I had to sit duty, Elliot came over. He is starting to get on my nerves. Technically we are not together, but we are. I am not seeing anyone else, and neither is he, but I dunno if I want to jump back into anything so soon. The other night when I was home, he called me 3 times in a 2 hour period. I didn't mind talking to him, but when I told him I might have to leave Alfred, he was like "Well don't worry about us, we will be fine, I will come see you all the time" UMMMMMMMMMMM...NO! There is no "us" and if I leave Alfred, I leave him with it. I don't plan on staying with him past May either. I have shit to do this summer, and I see him as a problem.
Some other stuff went down when I was at home too. So Sarah and I were at the mall, out to dinner, and she goes...."Damen IM'd me on my b-day" i was like SHUT THE FUCK UP!! I couldn't believe it. I didn't even know he still had her screename. It hurt me cause he could talk to my sis and not me. She blocked him though, and told my mom, and my mom was like...Don't tell Becky, it will only add to her anger. It did. So i text messaged him and told her to leave my sis and me alone. After talking to Elliot that night though, I just wanted to talk to someone who really knew me....So I text messaged Damen to see if he would answer...and he did, and he was nice. So we ended up talking on the phone for about a half hour, and then we got off. For the first time I finally felt satisfied. Like I didn't try to keep him on the phone, I didn't talk about why we broke up, anything. I am really starting to look at him as a friend, but someone I will always care for. We have talked and text messaged since then...but nothing major. It's nice to see I have moved on...just not to other guys, just that i am stronger than i used to be.