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So its 2 am, and i'm waiting to hear from Kellen because i had a scary dream and won't feel good about going to sleep and not knowing if he's home safely. I've been up for an hour and I'm moving from worried to pissed with every call-less minute that passes.
in other news, i'm at saddleback completing my last semester before i transfer next fall. I'm taking a whole buttload of units and half of them are honors classes. Its the second week and i'm already crazy. Pray for my sanity if nothing else. It will make my life wonderful If i am admitted to UCLA for fall 2005 but my life is pretty much ideal as it is so either way works. If i don't get in, its probably not in my cards, though i do have faith.
Still really enjoying working at planet beauty. Making some nice $$$ and i love all the girls that i work with. thank god for a job i like.
I love my parents more than ever. My mom has been sick lately and it scares the daylights out of me. She is getting older, even though she still looks young, i still couldnt imagine my life without her. or my dad even for that matter. slippery slope. i have to learn to stop that.
My holiday season was great as always. Surrounded by wonderful family and friends, festive food, and as always, tons of fun. I recieved nice things and also gave out n ice things for once. Its nice to have money to give. I had a warm house and clothes to keep me warm. I had fresh water. It's all so basic but I think thats why we forget so easily. I'm just really grateful.
I'm still with Kellen after 3 years and 4 months. Its been a long time but we're getting alone well so far so i'm good. We went snowboarding in Mammoth and it was a blast. He got a job offer so he will probably be starting real life now. Yay.
Nikki is getting married in 6 months. time to get into shape the right way. i cant wait for her wedding i'm so excited.
i feel myself inching back to prayer, little by little, and for once i don't feel weird about it. with all the disaster in the world, i am so grateful lately and i need to thank someone. we all know who that is.
I talked to Sean Salser, a former middle school boyfriend, and It was nice. Just now I mean. Whats weird is that he was in my strange dream about ten minutes before he got online. Anywhoo, I hope he gets home safely from whereever he is. He says he will be stationed here in Cali end of this year or something and I would love to see him, though it might be weird. He was one of two young crushes i can think back on and smile. I really liked him. If you're reading this, GET HOME SAFELY!
Also best wishes to Jeff, Megan J, Ghazal. They are going through hard times and They are in my prayers.
and Amira. I miss the crap out of you!
well thats all for now. wish me luck getting to sleep. hopefully it wont be months before i update again.
<3
in other news, i'm at saddleback completing my last semester before i transfer next fall. I'm taking a whole buttload of units and half of them are honors classes. Its the second week and i'm already crazy. Pray for my sanity if nothing else. It will make my life wonderful If i am admitted to UCLA for fall 2005 but my life is pretty much ideal as it is so either way works. If i don't get in, its probably not in my cards, though i do have faith.
Still really enjoying working at planet beauty. Making some nice $$$ and i love all the girls that i work with. thank god for a job i like.
I love my parents more than ever. My mom has been sick lately and it scares the daylights out of me. She is getting older, even though she still looks young, i still couldnt imagine my life without her. or my dad even for that matter. slippery slope. i have to learn to stop that.
My holiday season was great as always. Surrounded by wonderful family and friends, festive food, and as always, tons of fun. I recieved nice things and also gave out n ice things for once. Its nice to have money to give. I had a warm house and clothes to keep me warm. I had fresh water. It's all so basic but I think thats why we forget so easily. I'm just really grateful.
I'm still with Kellen after 3 years and 4 months. Its been a long time but we're getting alone well so far so i'm good. We went snowboarding in Mammoth and it was a blast. He got a job offer so he will probably be starting real life now. Yay.
Nikki is getting married in 6 months. time to get into shape the right way. i cant wait for her wedding i'm so excited.
i feel myself inching back to prayer, little by little, and for once i don't feel weird about it. with all the disaster in the world, i am so grateful lately and i need to thank someone. we all know who that is.
I talked to Sean Salser, a former middle school boyfriend, and It was nice. Just now I mean. Whats weird is that he was in my strange dream about ten minutes before he got online. Anywhoo, I hope he gets home safely from whereever he is. He says he will be stationed here in Cali end of this year or something and I would love to see him, though it might be weird. He was one of two young crushes i can think back on and smile. I really liked him. If you're reading this, GET HOME SAFELY!
Also best wishes to Jeff, Megan J, Ghazal. They are going through hard times and They are in my prayers.
and Amira. I miss the crap out of you!
well thats all for now. wish me luck getting to sleep. hopefully it wont be months before i update again.
<3