Obstacles we face (21/??)
Hi guys!!!! It's been a long time and this update has long been overdue. I miss writing this story and I will try with whatever break i have left to write. :D Thank you for your patience
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x Title: Obstacles we face (21/??)
x Author: sweetgirl2710
x Rating: G or PG-13 (sorry.. don't know what the rating should be)
x Pairing: ShoXOC
x Disclaimer: I do not own arashi just the plot
x Plot: He was busy. They didn't have time. She went for him, but disaster lies ahead of her.
Sho's PoV
The incessant ringing of the doorbell woke me up from my sleep, and the first thing that hit me was the strongest hangover I have ever had and I swear that I won't drink like last night ever. The second one was the blinding sunlight that passed through my blinds. I threw the pillow over my head to block out the noise and the light that was making my already aching head throb so much more than I could handle. Surely, the visitor would stop after a while because come on no one will be that patient in waiting if no one would answer the door. And true to my thoughts, the doorbell stopped ringing after a few minutes which made me sigh in relief, but I spoke too soon because after a few seconds I heard a familiar voice shouting outside of my flat. I knew that the guy outside would not stop unless I open that door and welcome him in. I threw my pillow to the headboard and quickly strode over to my front door wanting to just get this over with. I threw the door open and grunted at my unwelcomed visitor.
"Nino! What on earth would you want with me early this morning?!" I asked irritation clear in my voice.
"For your information my dear member it’s not early in the morning right now but NOON already.” He said in a mocking tone.
'Seriously?! How much of a wreck am I if I couldn’t even keep track of the time?' I thought to myself.
"Hey! Stop glaring at me! I came here for something okay?! So let me in and I'll be out of your hair as soon as possible."
The thought of him out of my hair as soon as possible made me move double time. He sat down in the dining room while I made my way to the kitchen.
"Want anything?” I shouted a little which as soon as I did I regretted my actions.
"Nah, I'm fine..." He shouted back. I brought two glasses of water back to the table.
"Nino, tone your voice down will you?"
"Sorry." He adjusted his tone. I sat down across from him.
"So why are you here?"
"You really want me out of this place fast don't you?"
"Not to be rude but yeah I do. You disturbed my sleep and I got a killer hangover here so I really want to rest it." He lightly chuckled.
"Then you shouldn’t have drunk so much last night." he said in an I-told-you-so tone.
"If you saw that I was getting wasted, you should have stopped me then.”
"I did... But you were too…. forceful? I don’t think that’s the right word though it’s too mild I think." The memory of it suddenly flashed in my head and I couldn’t help but feel the heat rush to my cheeks. Let's just say that if someone would have seen me last night I'm afraid that they will pretend that they don’t know me at all or worse they won’t even talk to me from that time on.
"You're beating around the bush again. Just tell me why you’re here."
"Well, you’re manager told me you have your schedule cleared for the day and asked me to relay it to you.” I quirked an eyebrow at him
“If that was all you were going to say to me then why bother going to my house? Why didn’t you just call me or messaged me?"
"I did call you but you weren’t answering. I tried messaging you but you did not reply. Apparently your phone is turned off again most probably because you forgot to recharge again."
"Oh..." I said "but how come you are the one telling this to me and not my manager?" I eyed him suspiciously because having a break for the past months was really impossible for me.
"Stop doubting me already this is not a prank okay? He tried calling you but you did not answer and by some sheer luck we bumped into each other today and he just asked me for this favour.”
"I’m sorry for troubling you then."
"You should be! Give me back my gas!" I laughed quietly knowing that he was just joking with me.
"You should really know how to recharge your phone you know... We aren’t free all the time to go to you personally." I just nodded.
"Is that all you came for?"
"No, I also wanted to check on you because last night you weren't yourself at all."
"Thanks for caring." I said sincerely
"Don’t worry about it. I will borrow your kitchen for a bit. You should probably go back to bed."
"Go ahead and use it just remember not to cause a mess or destroy anything."
"I know my way around the kitchen it’s you that should watch out when using a kitchen.” I faked a hurt expression but he just laughed it off.
"Lock my doors as you go." I said then headed for my bed.
My bed looked so inviting right now, but the sunlight was kind of blinding so I closed the blinds then lied on my bed. Remembering that I should recharge my phone, I pulled my phone out of the drawer and plugged it in the socket. As soon as it booted up, the screen flashed all the messages and calls that I missed. All of it was either from my members or the managers.
I focused on the ceiling hoping to go to dreamland once again but luck wasn't by my side this time. I don't know how long I was staring at the ceiling when Nino came in the room.
"I'm going now. There's soup on the table." He nodded then left in a rush before I even had the chance to say goodbye.
I smiled to myself. This was just so typical of Nino. Even though he tries not to show his concern you can just feel it right there. I tried to focus on the ceiling but dreamland was just too far away.
I brought the soup Nino made to my room and placed it on my worktable. I switched on the television, but didn’t bother to watch it. I just used it as background to remove the silence all around me. I sat on my worktable facing my lap top trying to come up with the rap lyrics for the next song but the words just didn’t come out naturally like it normally does. Hours into writing, I still haven't finished writing. My phone chose to ring that moment. I stumbled my way to my phone. I forgot to open the lights probably because I was too engrossed in completing the lyrics. I flipped the phone open then answered, "hello?"
"Sho-kun, she's awake."
“Seriously?” I feel the grin starting to spread onto my face.
“I am sure.”
“Thank you… Thank you…” I flipped the phone close.
'she's finally awake! I can finally talk to her. But what if she doesn't want to talk to me? No! There is no time for me to doubt myself. I need her to listen to me." with the resolution that I had formed within me, I immediately went to take the fastest shower I ever had. Within ten minutes, I was already out of the house speeding to her house.
~*~
My palm started to get sweaty as I treaded the way to her room. I am afraid what would happen but I’m sure of one thing. I will never stop until she listened to me.
I wiped my sweaty palms on my pants. I raised my fist to knock on the door. I heard her soft voice asking me to come in.
I slowly turned the knob and opened the door. She was sitting on the bed looking at the television. The sight of her made me so happy that I had forgotten to speak. I don't know for how long I was staring at her when I saw her head turn to my direction. I saw her brows furrow and her forehead crease, but maybe I was hallucinating because after a blink she just had a poker face on.
She turned her head once again to face the TV. “What are you doing here?" that snapped me out of my trance.
"I came to visit you. How are you?"
"Fine"
"So you need anything?"
"No"
"When did you wake up?"
"Sometime"
She spoke as minimal as possible but the words carried too much hostility that it made me shift uneasily. I went towards her bed.
"What have you been up to?" I waited for an answer but it never came so I tried another question,
"Are you hungry?" still no answer
"Please talk to me..." I begged her. "Please? I'll do anything that you want." As those words came out of my mouth, she turned towards me. I felt my smile grow from ear to ear.
"You would really do what I want?” I nodded thinking that I was having a chance with her again.
"Fine then if I talk to you, do you promise me that you will do what I want." I wondered for a second because this was becoming too easy.
‘She never goes easy.’
"Well I will promise if you say what you want first."
"That’s fine I guess."
"So what do you want?"
"I want you and your group of friends to stay out of my life." sneering as she said the words.
‘Boom! And I was right…. Nothing is really easy when it comes to her.’
"I can't promise you that. NEVER." she laughed humourlessly.
"Then I can’t do anything about it." she turned away from me.
"Haruka please you can ask for other things but anything of this sort I surely cant do."
Her eyes were glued to the TV but I heard her mumble ‘hypocrite’
"If you don’t want to talk to me then I won’t force you anymore but I will stay here." Tension floated in the air. Neither one of us spoke. Only the television was breaking the silence. I can’t take the silence anymore.
“You were unconscious for quite a while you know that?” I paused even though I knew that she wouldn’t reply.
“It was 5 months 11 days to be exact. You know every time I came here I hoped that you would open your eyes and prove to me that you were already fine, but every time I came here my hope was slowly fading. Every time I come back home, I would miss you standing there on the door waiting for me. I miss your cooking, voice, and everything about you. It’s true that you don’t realize what you have until you lose it. I realize that I can’t live without you by my side. I realize that I need you by my side…”
“Stop..” She said, but I ignored it.
“I want you back and I will do anything for you to be by my side again. I love you.“
“STOP!” she almost screamed. I stopped and looked at her. Her eyes were full of pain and hurt.
“Please just stop it. Sakurai-san, please stop doing this because I know for a fact that what you are saying isn’t true.”
“No, I would not…”
“NO! It’s NOT what you are feeling, and please don’t use that L-word again because it’s not true.”
“But it’s the truth!”
“IT’S NOT THE TRUTH! The truth is what you are feeling right now is nothing like that! The truth is what you are feeling is guilt. You feel guilty because I was in coma because of you. Let me guess you and the guys kept coming here, am I right?” I nodded briefly.
“That’s what all of you felt. You all felt guilty because you all lied to me. You missed me you say? But the truth is, it’s not me that you were missing. You were missing someone that would clean up your house. You were missing someone that would willingly do anything for you because she was crazily infatuated with you, and that L-word? Oh for goodness sake’s that L-word is just rubbish. That L-word is just an illusion because the truth is nothing like that.” She pressed a button, which was by her side.
“It’s not guilt…” I said.
“You know your way out. Please go.”
“No, I want you to listen to me.” The door opened, but I did not bother to look who it was. “Please listen and believe me.”
“XX-san please help him out.”
“Hai, ojou-sama.” I looked at her desperately, but she lied down the bed and turned her back on me. I gave up for the day. Pushing her too much might just make her turn away from me.
“I’ll see you again.” I said to her, and then walked away.
Haruka’s PoV
I turned my back on him, and stared at the TV.
“I’ll see you again.” I heard him say. The next thing I heard was the shut of the door.
I lied on my back and put an arm on my forehead while I looked at the ceiling.
“I want you back and I will do anything for you to be by my side again. I love you.“ his words were echoing inside my head.
‘Is it true? Is he really saying that he loves me? Does he really love me? no… no… NO! I can’t think this way again and be swayed. I can’t think that he loves me. In the end, it will just be me who will be hurt. I need to stop this foolishness!’ I scolded myself.
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