YA KNO....
I have aq lot to think about. There are things I want to pursue and do and yet I have no idea where to get started. I plan to live for God I kno that but it's so hard to pick u7p my bible and spend down time with my BEST FRIEND. I guess I am frustrated cuz the only excuse I have is that I'm lazy. I just don't expect my self to be on the right path if I am not even trying to get the answers. But It's funny cuz UI still am in love with him. God is just that cool straight up. Well either way I gotta find out these answers soon cuz college is very close and it's time I turned my ear toward him.... I guess I may be eeven scared of the answers
So.. prom is agitating me right not.. because I feel like I'm being pressured to do something I don't kno if I really want to do. i was called selfish, incosiderate, and rude by two different parties in the [ast 2 days and quite frankly it upsets me... brcause no one ever thought to consider me for one minute. Sure I'm best friends with you but um.. "yeah I think I'll concentrate on my man or my othe friends" .. who by the way NEWS FLASH probably don't sit there at night windering why you looked ssad today, or prays for you, or maybe even wants to keep in contact with you after highschool is over... so this leaves me to conclude that maybe I should be the one sitting here wondering who my friends truly are... I KNO for a fact me and josh will be friends forever because my relationship with him didn't really grow until after he moved andwe started on the phone. so since it started a long distance relationship I just kno him , me and jaz are forever. I gotta ask myself who I want to talk to when I'm upset and you kno I guess I get pissed off thinking about it because sometimes I wonder if they really care. If they cared would they really be forcing me to decide on prom like this. Like I kno it's my decision but it effects everyone including myself.EERGGHHHHHHHHH I DK.... AT LEAST I HAVE JESUS
So.. prom is agitating me right not.. because I feel like I'm being pressured to do something I don't kno if I really want to do. i was called selfish, incosiderate, and rude by two different parties in the [ast 2 days and quite frankly it upsets me... brcause no one ever thought to consider me for one minute. Sure I'm best friends with you but um.. "yeah I think I'll concentrate on my man or my othe friends" .. who by the way NEWS FLASH probably don't sit there at night windering why you looked ssad today, or prays for you, or maybe even wants to keep in contact with you after highschool is over... so this leaves me to conclude that maybe I should be the one sitting here wondering who my friends truly are... I KNO for a fact me and josh will be friends forever because my relationship with him didn't really grow until after he moved andwe started on the phone. so since it started a long distance relationship I just kno him , me and jaz are forever. I gotta ask myself who I want to talk to when I'm upset and you kno I guess I get pissed off thinking about it because sometimes I wonder if they really care. If they cared would they really be forcing me to decide on prom like this. Like I kno it's my decision but it effects everyone including myself.EERGGHHHHHHHHH I DK.... AT LEAST I HAVE JESUS