Seek thee counselling, and ye shall break into good habits.
Well, if Jinx and I both need help at this point (which it certainly does seem) I think we should go to a counsellor together.
Sort of like marriage counselling, but for couples. I think he needs to seem some serious mental help after he said the things he did about my family. Let me give you guys some insight.
My gram is a 78 year old woman, and he said he was afraid of her and her short fuse. He also said he was afraid of my mom who threatened him in no way. My mom was simply upset. Her husband went to rehab, her friend and room-mate had been send to jail, and her step-father died. She might have been a little overly-emotional. It was wrong on her part to not take him to the assitance office, but she would've never hurt him. He has some serious issues saying that shit.
None of my family would have ever hurt him if he broke up with me and saying something like that is drastically out of touch with reality.
(oh look, I'm pointing at the disorder he has)
Oh, what else? Me.. ok.. ok.. so I might be a little abusive at times. I'll be the first to admit that it was wrong for me to ever hit Jinx for anything he did. It is an issue I need to deal with. I'll be the first to admit that I have serious emotional problems that need dealt. Anyway, he does too. Let's think about this.. ok?
He ignored me while he was here. I didn't just "invade" his personal space. I wanted to cuddle. Yes, it did get to be all the time. I couldn't stand it when he wouldn't give me affection. Maybe I drove him to act this way, but now he won't even say I love you. I went from lots of affection and being his whole world to being a pile of dirt that he doesn't want to deal with. The actions in which he did some of these things, especially his arrogance towards me were also abusive.
My mom had said she saw repeatedly abusive behavior towards me with him. He would move away from my touch, tell me to shut up, tell me to go away and constantly make me think that me wanting him to hug me made him want to kill himself.
I would have to say that I couldn't live up to some of the things he wanted, but he's being extremely selfish. I never wanted to break up with him even though I wanted so much from the relationship. He treats me like shit now, and I don't wanna break up with him. I'm not that fucking selfish. To be honest, I want the dream. I want the kids, the future, the house, the marriage, the happy life.
I don't know what the fuck I did or where I went wrong, but I must have went extremely wrong. I just can't seem to make myself believe that the break-up is for the better. I need him like water, I guess. I'm lying to myself trying to make myself feel better about it. I'm trying to build myself up emotionally and tell myself it's gonna be ok. It's not even close to ok, not even after he said those things about me and my family. Nothing could piss me off enough to make me not love him like he was the last man on earth.
I fucking love him more than I have ever loved anyone before and I've never had a relationship I wanted to keep alive more. He lied to me long ago when he said no matter how bad things got he would never break it off with me.
He doesn't want to keep what we have. He doesn't want to try to work things out. Go to counselling or something. It kills me that people want to break relationships off so easily when they can be mended. It's not like there is unfaithfulness or something horribly wrong within. It's things that can be changed by simple emotional altering, but no matter how much I try to tell him online, especially on Yahoo that I just want to change even the way we converse. He doesn't want it. I don't get it, he seems to me so liberal and open to changes.
Why can't we just mend the broken skin and wounds and keep everything alive? The days were soooo good when we were together at first. We can make it happen again. I still love you like that.
I just don't know.
-Dani
Sort of like marriage counselling, but for couples. I think he needs to seem some serious mental help after he said the things he did about my family. Let me give you guys some insight.
My gram is a 78 year old woman, and he said he was afraid of her and her short fuse. He also said he was afraid of my mom who threatened him in no way. My mom was simply upset. Her husband went to rehab, her friend and room-mate had been send to jail, and her step-father died. She might have been a little overly-emotional. It was wrong on her part to not take him to the assitance office, but she would've never hurt him. He has some serious issues saying that shit.
None of my family would have ever hurt him if he broke up with me and saying something like that is drastically out of touch with reality.
(oh look, I'm pointing at the disorder he has)
Oh, what else? Me.. ok.. ok.. so I might be a little abusive at times. I'll be the first to admit that it was wrong for me to ever hit Jinx for anything he did. It is an issue I need to deal with. I'll be the first to admit that I have serious emotional problems that need dealt. Anyway, he does too. Let's think about this.. ok?
He ignored me while he was here. I didn't just "invade" his personal space. I wanted to cuddle. Yes, it did get to be all the time. I couldn't stand it when he wouldn't give me affection. Maybe I drove him to act this way, but now he won't even say I love you. I went from lots of affection and being his whole world to being a pile of dirt that he doesn't want to deal with. The actions in which he did some of these things, especially his arrogance towards me were also abusive.
My mom had said she saw repeatedly abusive behavior towards me with him. He would move away from my touch, tell me to shut up, tell me to go away and constantly make me think that me wanting him to hug me made him want to kill himself.
I would have to say that I couldn't live up to some of the things he wanted, but he's being extremely selfish. I never wanted to break up with him even though I wanted so much from the relationship. He treats me like shit now, and I don't wanna break up with him. I'm not that fucking selfish. To be honest, I want the dream. I want the kids, the future, the house, the marriage, the happy life.
I don't know what the fuck I did or where I went wrong, but I must have went extremely wrong. I just can't seem to make myself believe that the break-up is for the better. I need him like water, I guess. I'm lying to myself trying to make myself feel better about it. I'm trying to build myself up emotionally and tell myself it's gonna be ok. It's not even close to ok, not even after he said those things about me and my family. Nothing could piss me off enough to make me not love him like he was the last man on earth.
I fucking love him more than I have ever loved anyone before and I've never had a relationship I wanted to keep alive more. He lied to me long ago when he said no matter how bad things got he would never break it off with me.
He doesn't want to keep what we have. He doesn't want to try to work things out. Go to counselling or something. It kills me that people want to break relationships off so easily when they can be mended. It's not like there is unfaithfulness or something horribly wrong within. It's things that can be changed by simple emotional altering, but no matter how much I try to tell him online, especially on Yahoo that I just want to change even the way we converse. He doesn't want it. I don't get it, he seems to me so liberal and open to changes.
Why can't we just mend the broken skin and wounds and keep everything alive? The days were soooo good when we were together at first. We can make it happen again. I still love you like that.
I just don't know.
-Dani