Pain I've Always Felt
Title: Pain I've Always Felt
Rating: K+
Genre/s: Drama/Angst
Warning/s: Emo-ish fic and confusion, I guess.
Summary: I thought she didn't care, but I guess she really did care after all.
Author's Note: I dedicated this one to someone I love right now. That's why I wrote this one angsty because I know that person will never reciprocate my love, unless it will happen. Happy Valentine's Day! Thank you craazychrissy for being my beta. I hope you enjoy this one! :P Don't ask me questions. >///<
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I never felt so much sadness inside me until I met you. I don't know why, but I know it's incurable.
It hurts, and I don't really know how to stop it. I wanted to shout and tell the people that it hurt so much, but I'm afraid that they might hurt you. So, I always kept it for myself and I never let anyone know.
The pain increased as days passed by. Every time I see with another person, the pain becomes harder to bear. I wanted to stop it, but my actions were futile.
Please help me stop the pain I've been experiencing. But what did you do? You just ignored my plea and you didn't help me. I couldn't take it anymore. I fell on my knees, and tears were running down on my face. You left me completely destroyed, and I hate you for tearing me apart.
I hate you very much, but at the same time there's still love I feel for you. Love is so hard to control.
Before I was engulfed into the darkness, I heard someone shouting my name. I wanted to look at the face of the person, but I couldn't. Then my eyes closed involuntarily.
I woke up in a wonderful place filled with beautiful sunflowers. It made me a little happy and I've noticed the pain inside me, non-existent. Am I in heaven? If I was, then I would be happy, yet sad. I would be happy because I would never suffer anymore and sad because I wouldn't be able to see your angelic face anymore. I would miss your charming smiles, tantalizing emerald eyes, and your pleasant voice.
I didn't even get the chance to say goodbye, but I knew you deserved to suffer also because of what you've done.
I snapped in my thoughts when I saw a figure of a person coming. My eyes widened when I saw it was you. Am I dreaming? Yes, maybe this is all a dream.There's no way I could see her in heaven, unless she committed suicide, or someone killed her.
You were running and carrying the beautiful smile I always loved. When you were now in front of me, you held my hands. I was confused at first at what were you doing, but I got your message when you gave me a peck in the lips. I couldn't respond, but I felt happy, for once. A huge smile appeared on my face and I embraced you like there's no tomorrow. I felt your arms embracing me back. If this was a dream, I wanted to stay here forever.
As our hug broke apart, your smile disappeared and you uttered this word. Goodbye. Before I could ask, you were already gone. Darkness unfolds and I shrieked in despair. You left me once again. I wish I disappeared because I didn't have anything to do in this world. My life is useless and I don't care anymore.
I could hear a faint voice shouting my name. Why would I? Then bright light and it engulfed me.
I was at the hospital, lying down on a bed. I quickly scanned the room and only to see you. If this only a dream, I don't want it anymore. Then somehow, I felt it was real when her tears suddenly fell on my face and she suddenly hugged me. You told me what happened to me and how you were worried.
I thought she didn't care, but I guess she really did care after all.
After few days, I was out of the hospital. You were the first person to greet me. I smiled as you smiled back. Our hands intertwined as we walked through the path on the way to our homes. For once, I felt so happy. I'm happy to be alive again, and happy to be with you forever.
Rating: K+
Genre/s: Drama/Angst
Warning/s: Emo-ish fic and confusion, I guess.
Summary: I thought she didn't care, but I guess she really did care after all.
Author's Note: I dedicated this one to someone I love right now. That's why I wrote this one angsty because I know that person will never reciprocate my love, unless it will happen. Happy Valentine's Day! Thank you craazychrissy for being my beta. I hope you enjoy this one! :P Don't ask me questions. >///<
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I never felt so much sadness inside me until I met you. I don't know why, but I know it's incurable.
It hurts, and I don't really know how to stop it. I wanted to shout and tell the people that it hurt so much, but I'm afraid that they might hurt you. So, I always kept it for myself and I never let anyone know.
The pain increased as days passed by. Every time I see with another person, the pain becomes harder to bear. I wanted to stop it, but my actions were futile.
Please help me stop the pain I've been experiencing. But what did you do? You just ignored my plea and you didn't help me. I couldn't take it anymore. I fell on my knees, and tears were running down on my face. You left me completely destroyed, and I hate you for tearing me apart.
I hate you very much, but at the same time there's still love I feel for you. Love is so hard to control.
Before I was engulfed into the darkness, I heard someone shouting my name. I wanted to look at the face of the person, but I couldn't. Then my eyes closed involuntarily.
I woke up in a wonderful place filled with beautiful sunflowers. It made me a little happy and I've noticed the pain inside me, non-existent. Am I in heaven? If I was, then I would be happy, yet sad. I would be happy because I would never suffer anymore and sad because I wouldn't be able to see your angelic face anymore. I would miss your charming smiles, tantalizing emerald eyes, and your pleasant voice.
I didn't even get the chance to say goodbye, but I knew you deserved to suffer also because of what you've done.
I snapped in my thoughts when I saw a figure of a person coming. My eyes widened when I saw it was you. Am I dreaming? Yes, maybe this is all a dream.There's no way I could see her in heaven, unless she committed suicide, or someone killed her.
You were running and carrying the beautiful smile I always loved. When you were now in front of me, you held my hands. I was confused at first at what were you doing, but I got your message when you gave me a peck in the lips. I couldn't respond, but I felt happy, for once. A huge smile appeared on my face and I embraced you like there's no tomorrow. I felt your arms embracing me back. If this was a dream, I wanted to stay here forever.
As our hug broke apart, your smile disappeared and you uttered this word. Goodbye. Before I could ask, you were already gone. Darkness unfolds and I shrieked in despair. You left me once again. I wish I disappeared because I didn't have anything to do in this world. My life is useless and I don't care anymore.
I could hear a faint voice shouting my name. Why would I? Then bright light and it engulfed me.
I was at the hospital, lying down on a bed. I quickly scanned the room and only to see you. If this only a dream, I don't want it anymore. Then somehow, I felt it was real when her tears suddenly fell on my face and she suddenly hugged me. You told me what happened to me and how you were worried.
I thought she didn't care, but I guess she really did care after all.
After few days, I was out of the hospital. You were the first person to greet me. I smiled as you smiled back. Our hands intertwined as we walked through the path on the way to our homes. For once, I felt so happy. I'm happy to be alive again, and happy to be with you forever.