Well well well now.....
Well lovelys, its been quite awhile...
Thought it was time for an update-altho I feel like I don't have much to say, becuz I can't say what I want too....
But yeah, here I am, at 1:40AM. It's become a regular thing lately-I can't sleep, I've had a lousy week and I've been pretty down. I honestly haven't slept in days. I feel like I stare at the clock, I feel super anxious, I know I have reasons, but at the same time I'm not sure why. My eye's hurt, my heads killing me, I called into work 2 days this week. I haven't worked out or done anything. In genral I haven't really been up to very much in the last few weeks or so. I've had my fair share of issues lately, mostly personal and emotional. I feel super lonely all the time, and I feel like sometimes no one understands that.
I really don't have much to say. There are somethings that I need to discuss with someone very important to me... so I'm hoping to take care and accomplish that this weekend. I haven't seen very much of Jesse this week. Sunday was our 6 month anniversary-it was nice, we went to Red Robin where we went on our first like date-it was cute, thats when this headache I've had for almost 2 weeks constantly started to really bother me-so I felt kinda lousy, but then we rented a movie and came back here with no intention of watching it... which is always fun, I feel like I have a lot to say to him about a lot of stuff and for different reason I haven't-yet. Long story, def. not getting into it.
He's been busy this week, he went to NYC Tuesday for karate, and is going again in the morning. I saw him for like a few hours Wednesday night, but it's been kinda a lonely week which hasn't helped how I feel. I'm hoping besides the ridiculous sickening amounts of rain that this weekend is fun.
Wicked early Saturday morning I'm going with Jesse, his parents, Adam & Kurt down to the City for Jesse's last day of karate tournament thing. Then after his parents leave we are getting a hotel in New Jersey and walking around in Time Square-which I'm pretty excited for, and going to Central Park, its gonna be nice to hangout with my boys, and sleep next to my honey. Sunday we'll hangout and then we're going to the Hammerstein (sp?) Ballroom or whatever to see this ECW wrestling show-I'm hoping Mike Awesome will be there. Then on the 20th is wrestling at the Pepsi-praying for some Matt Hardy action lol, so that'll be an exciting few wrestling days lol.
Next Friday I'm outta here for like 4 days! Jesse, and his parents invited me to go camping with them, I love camping-bet you'd never guess that-so I'm pretty excited about that-it's giving me something to look forward too. I guess since I can't say what I want to thats all I have to say right now. I'm not sure when I'll get around to updating this again, I'm thinking of making it friends only for a whle so I can vent which would make me feel super better I think-I dunno, but I'll try to update more-I kinda miss this thing... but thats all for now-I'm out, lata lovelys. <3 :)
ILY Jesse <333 xoxo