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I wrote a few journal entries but didn't get to add them on the days of- so here they are.
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So this weekend was lots of fun. Plus it occurred to me today that I've had this MySpace for a year today, so Happy b-day to my MySpace lol... I know I'm a silly one lol.
Anyways, Saturday after working till 4, Jesse came over and we went to dinner with his parents. That was fun, I really like them. Then we stayed over at Adams last night, drank, had some good laughs, ate way too much, set off a few firework, cuz Jesses a pyro lol. Then sat in the hottub for like close to 3 hours prolly.
Kurt... all I can say is rofl. He was hysterical! Aww poor him, what a dumb thing to do!
Anyways it was nice to wake up with the fool again, haven't done that since Florida. Then we all hungout all day today, & I worked on some homework while the boys discussed the movie they are planning to make and played video games. Then we went to AppelBee's and the waitress prolly hated us lol, then we got ice cream and watched the PPV at Adams. [pics will be up on Webshots soon!]
I'm sooooo in love with these boys, they are soooo much fun, and I am so happy to be around all of them. Such awesome guys! They are my boys! I love you Jesse!
That's all I got about that. Ohh yeah my papers done, thank GOD, I feel good, plus the hottub really helped me relax this weekend, plus I got out of my house, so that rocked. Schools almost over, sigh yes. Considering that I am still kinda stressed about some school stuff and some other stuff, Lindsay & I talked, I guess were ok, I hope.
But yeah I had a good weekend. Here's this out of boerdum before I pass out for the night. I got cable back too, so I'm totally watching Roseanne, and GG's tomorrow night along with WWE RAW lol-yay! I'm out, lata my lovelys.
Hey lovelys!
I had prolly one of best & busy-est weekends in a while.
Friday night Jesse & I went to Moticello (sp?) NY to watch a fireworks demo-pretty cool, kinda chilly, but we saw some cool fireworks, Jesse's obsessed so I know that made him happy.
Then we had to pass through New Paltz to come back home so we stopped into Fancy succulent JaMiEs house for her "Gangsters, Pimps & Hoes" party-wow is all that can be said.
Meggy & my MAMA Beth were there- so I got to see them and take crazy fun pics.... it was great-it was very cool of Jesse to go with me-Beth told Meg she thinks he's adorable haha... she was soooo drunk, it was great! I got a video of her dancing beyond drunkness to 2gether of all things, wow.
It was great to see my Meggy, Beth & JaMiE [whom I haven't seen in over 2 years!] It was also nice to be alone with Jesse, the car ride gave us time to talk, I feel like there's soooo much between us and there was some stuff we needed to talk about together and I'm glad we did.
Saturday I worked till 5, eh work was ok, Lindsay & Meighan were working so thats always a good time... then Jesse came over we got Mr. Subbs and went to PC to get some hot dogs, beer, chips, marshmellows & that stuff.
Then Jesse with his expert lego skills haha built this fireplace in my backyard. It looks really good, he did an awesome job. He helped me set up my tent and we chilled until Adam & Kurt came over, then we made a fire and drank, talked, laughed and relaxed around the fire.
Steve Jesse's friend whom I haven't seen since Jesse Christmas Eve party came over, he's really nice, while the boys did a beer run up to Hess like 2 feet away we had some cool conversations. He's a nice guy.
Ohh yeah and I learned not to throw double A batteries from my digicam after they die into the fire.... that mini explosion was cool tho lol. Yeah it was an interesting night haha.
After the guys left, Jesse who was pretty drunk & high slept in my tent with me. It wasn't too cold..... But around 6AM, the birds & the brightness woke me up and Jesse & I cuddled and decided we were too cold to stay in the tent haha, and came inside to sleep in my bed. It was a good morning, I love sleeping next to the fool <3
It was prolly the most fun weekened I've had in a while. So this summer maybe like every other weekened or so we can all relax around the fire in my backyard and just drink & be merry lol. Yes.
But now I must work on some homework. blah.
That's all for now. I'm out, lata loves! <3 :)
ILY Jesse <333 [smooch] *hugs* xoxo
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Todays thoughts.
People amuse me sooo much! I had to look up words thismorning for a class so I could study for a test. I seem to know or be in some sort of connection to many of these types of people lately. They are either friends, people in general or people I've just observed passing by. I also wanna straight up say that this is not pointed at anyone in particular, but just things I've observed and noticed and took the time to consider and think about.
The dictionary defines hypocrite: as a person who professes beliefs and opinions that he or she does not hold.
Then we have a word everyone knows because EVERYONE does it, liar: To present false information with the intention of deceiving, to convey a false image or impression: Appearances often lie.
So many deceitful people too!!! So what does the dictionary define it as.... deceitful: Deliberately misleading; deceptive, pretending one set of feelings and acting under the influence of another; "she was a deceitful scheming little thing"
Then we have the ever present human trait of being self-absorbed: absorbed in your own interests or thoughts etc
Then we have thee also ever present & popular rude or rudeness: Lacking education or knowledge; unlearned; Ill-mannered; discourteous: rude behavior.
I tend to think that people learn these thing from their parents, who obviously did a shitty job raising them. But yeah I was taking my test today and this girl who I think has been a pretty big nuisance, and annoying all semester kept getting calls on her cell phone- well instead of being intelligent and turning it off she would open it and hang up on whoever was calling her and then set it down and it would ring again-I mean come on- HELLO!
I just get so annoyed with people lately. I mean really think before you speak, don't jump to conclusions, and just use common sense and be mature. It's not too dificult a concept! People just lack common sense, courtesy and intelligence anymore. Its so annoyingly sad and pathetic if you really think about it.
I mean yeah I know no ones perfect, I'll be the first to admit I def. am not, but I wanted to kick this girl in the head! Here people are trying to take a final test and she can't not get some probably completely unimportant phone call for a lousy hour, it apparently was to hard for her to just turn her phone off.
I think I did well on my test tho on the plus side, so thats good. I dunno tho, people just don't realize how annoying they can be I don't think. And I've noticed people just don't care to think of consequences to their actions or words before they do them or say them, and then they get mad.
It's also occured to me that, at one point I thought my friends who were away at school stopped caring about me, but they def, haven't- they def. do still care. And its funny because I feel like some of my friends I have who are here now- don't.
I know I've changed a hell of a lot since high school, for a long time I was angry because so many of my friends changed soooo much and were so different, I'll be the first to admit I have changed soooo much since 2003. I am so not the same person.
It took me a long time and I think with my parents situation I've realized that it's okay. People do change, whether you want them to or not or are perpared for it or not, its part of life, it happens.
You can either accept them with the changes they've made or gone through and be happy for them & supportive and understanding, or consider that a great memory that you had at one point of time in your life and move on.
I moved on from some people for awhile and now they are back in my life and I'm so glad they are. Like Meg & Beth, I basically like last summer really couldn't care less becuase I felt like they didn't wanna put in any effort to hangout with me, so I said fuck them and didn't bother with them, but they do care. Sometimes people just have a funny way of showing it.
Friendship is something you work at and put effort into, not just expect the one person to do it all! Friendship like any relationship takes two people and both of thoes people have to want it and have to work at it.
But yeah people change, there's nothing you can do about it. Whether its for the better or not isn't up to you, accept it or move on. I'd like to think after taking time away from some people they come back into my life for the better. I'd like to think there's very few people I can move on from and very few people who could move on without me....
Gosh wow, I'm being kinda philisophical (sp?) today. Hmm. I had a lot of time yesterday and last night to think about things I guess. This girl from my test thismorning must have really irked me lol.
But anyways thoes are my thoughts for the time being I guess. It's such a nice day out, and I don't have to work today so perhaps I'll go walk to Hotdog Charlies and get something to eat. I'm out, lata for now my lovelys!
ILY Jesse <333 :) [smooch] xoxo