One Year....
Tomorrow makes a year already. One year. It doesn't seem that long ago but at the same time, it feels as though he's been gone forever. I miss him. I truly do. I know some people may feel as though I'm over him because I'm dating Chris, but I love both of them with all my heart. It might seem as though I moved on really fast, but it's not that I have forgotten about Matt cause I never could forget him nor will I ever forget him. It makes me wonder how I was able to find someone else that treats me just as well as Matt did and loves me just as much and that I love him just as much as Matt. And I'll be honest, there are times when Chris does something that is exactly what Matt use to do... and I still feel as though Matt's around.
Some how, so far, I'm doing okay with the one year anniversary coming up tomorrow. I think what helps is the fact that I've moved back home and I'm with people again. I know I'm stressed though. I'm breaking out and I went to the doctor today and of course... High Blood Pressure.
I went to the cemetary yesterday. There's so many beautiful flowers planted around the headstone. It's so beautiful. Tomorrow I'm bringing more flowers there. ::Sigh:: I keep having flash backs to a year ago. How everything went and played out. The emotions that I felt. It's weird.
I was thinking the other day... and came to the realization... no one ends up with their first love. No one (besides in movies) Chris had mentioned to me and said "With how me and Matt were, there was nothing that would have broken us up. And the only thing imaginable that could seperate us happened." How many people can say that they've spent their whole lives with their first love. It's as though, you're suppose to know the feeling of love, and then lose that person you learned that feeling with and fall in love with someone else.
Sitting here... have no idea what else to write. I guess I'll go. I may update again tomorrow. Who knows. Bye xoxo
R.I.P. Matt Daigle
08.22.86-05.12.05
I'll love you always and forever.
Some how, so far, I'm doing okay with the one year anniversary coming up tomorrow. I think what helps is the fact that I've moved back home and I'm with people again. I know I'm stressed though. I'm breaking out and I went to the doctor today and of course... High Blood Pressure.
I went to the cemetary yesterday. There's so many beautiful flowers planted around the headstone. It's so beautiful. Tomorrow I'm bringing more flowers there. ::Sigh:: I keep having flash backs to a year ago. How everything went and played out. The emotions that I felt. It's weird.
I was thinking the other day... and came to the realization... no one ends up with their first love. No one (besides in movies) Chris had mentioned to me and said "With how me and Matt were, there was nothing that would have broken us up. And the only thing imaginable that could seperate us happened." How many people can say that they've spent their whole lives with their first love. It's as though, you're suppose to know the feeling of love, and then lose that person you learned that feeling with and fall in love with someone else.
Sitting here... have no idea what else to write. I guess I'll go. I may update again tomorrow. Who knows. Bye xoxo
R.I.P. Matt Daigle
08.22.86-05.12.05
I'll love you always and forever.