Sorry...
Hey sorry i havent updated in a while well this one might be really long cuz i got alot to say!....
well i was sick for thursday and friday with food poisening that sucked so bad i threw up like 12 times, then saturday after i got back from babysitting i fought with shannon for like an hour over sean i mean what she was doing was wrong and all but maybe i shouldnt have told her to tell him that she has a boyfriend even thought keeping it from him is REALLY wrong now hes pulling the suicide shit and i hope that he doesnt really do anything even thought hes talked shit like this before im sick of trying to help and ending up at the bottom it dont help any that shannon had her friends over and they were being dum and saying stupid shit like oh im gonna beat you up and shit well if you guys wanna fucking fight shannons battles for her than BRING IT BITCHES!!! i dont know why i even try to be there for her anymore but whatever enough about that after that i talked to mike(a couple days ago he asked me out btw) and i said yes..then i realized how dumb it was cuz i dont want a long distance relationship we would never get to see each other i mean its not that i dont like him its just i want someone that i could be close too i miss being in a relationship but i cant get someone who i care about and who cares that much about me to then when i finally do find someone im always thinking back about ben i dont know why i know that he dont want shit to do with me so why do i keep wanting to go back with him? maybe its because i am still DEEPLY IN LOVE with the kid i dont know why thought because he told me he just wants to be friends i just cant comprehend that even though i should i wish that i had someone who would just listen to me once in a while but w/e <3 Sara
well i was sick for thursday and friday with food poisening that sucked so bad i threw up like 12 times, then saturday after i got back from babysitting i fought with shannon for like an hour over sean i mean what she was doing was wrong and all but maybe i shouldnt have told her to tell him that she has a boyfriend even thought keeping it from him is REALLY wrong now hes pulling the suicide shit and i hope that he doesnt really do anything even thought hes talked shit like this before im sick of trying to help and ending up at the bottom it dont help any that shannon had her friends over and they were being dum and saying stupid shit like oh im gonna beat you up and shit well if you guys wanna fucking fight shannons battles for her than BRING IT BITCHES!!! i dont know why i even try to be there for her anymore but whatever enough about that after that i talked to mike(a couple days ago he asked me out btw) and i said yes..then i realized how dumb it was cuz i dont want a long distance relationship we would never get to see each other i mean its not that i dont like him its just i want someone that i could be close too i miss being in a relationship but i cant get someone who i care about and who cares that much about me to then when i finally do find someone im always thinking back about ben i dont know why i know that he dont want shit to do with me so why do i keep wanting to go back with him? maybe its because i am still DEEPLY IN LOVE with the kid i dont know why thought because he told me he just wants to be friends i just cant comprehend that even though i should i wish that i had someone who would just listen to me once in a while but w/e <3 Sara