He said I am Beautiful
Well I slept over Adam's last nite with kayla... I had a lot fo fun.. I'm styaing over again tonite... When I got out of the shower today I whiped the mirror and looked at my reflection... and for the first time in a long time I felt pretty... Not because of makeup or nice clothing... Just me and the mirror... For about half a year now I have been pining over someone who doesn't even realize what he could have... well I'm over it... I am not waiting anymore... He never complimented me, or said anything that was particularly nice about anyone... I never noticed this until last nite when Adam kept telling me that I was beautiful and that everything I did was cute... For once I actually felt special... I felt wanted... I didnt feel like I had to force my way into his sight for him to notice me... I found myself today putting makeup on and doing my hair, hell I even painted my nails to match my outfit... Things I havent done in a long time... And it's not that i want to impress Adam, I just want to look good for him... Even tho in his opionion I looked good when i woke up this morning (which is weird cuz my hair was half fallen down and i had fallen asleep in my cloths from yesterday...). My biggest worry right now is upsetting Nicole... I love her to death... This was so unexpected... I don'tthink i could bear it if she was mad at me... Adam was the last person in the world that I expected this to happen with...(note to perverts: no we didnt have sex or even mess around for that matter)... If anyone has any comments on what I should do please state them... Cuz everyone I have asked so far have told me that I have been unhappy for so long... that if Adam is going to make me happy go for it...
I quit smoking on sunday... Brittany is going to camp, so i'll be less stressed and have my own room for a month lol... I think Bryen is mad at me... don't know what... not like he would tell me anyways... He wants people to think that he is indifferent to stuff like feelings... heh, only the dead are indifferent. O - well I will always have a very important place in my heart for the guy who was my world for a while... Thank you Bryen for helping me get over Chris... You may not have meant to, but you did... I wish Aubie and Keri would hurry up and get here... Adam gets out of work in like 10 20 minutes... I am burning the box that i made "him" Aubie said it will help... Like a closing to another chapter in my life...
Aubie was right, she said it, someone would find me, however unexpected it was, he did... So cheers to the next chapter in my life and goodbye to the rest...."the things you do are so cute, and you are beautiful..." nicest thing that a guy has ever said to me...
I quit smoking on sunday... Brittany is going to camp, so i'll be less stressed and have my own room for a month lol... I think Bryen is mad at me... don't know what... not like he would tell me anyways... He wants people to think that he is indifferent to stuff like feelings... heh, only the dead are indifferent. O - well I will always have a very important place in my heart for the guy who was my world for a while... Thank you Bryen for helping me get over Chris... You may not have meant to, but you did... I wish Aubie and Keri would hurry up and get here... Adam gets out of work in like 10 20 minutes... I am burning the box that i made "him" Aubie said it will help... Like a closing to another chapter in my life...
Aubie was right, she said it, someone would find me, however unexpected it was, he did... So cheers to the next chapter in my life and goodbye to the rest...."the things you do are so cute, and you are beautiful..." nicest thing that a guy has ever said to me...