sleepy

[sweetestsong87]

Oh lordy.. So here we go with the "oh I haven't wrote in here in forever so I'm going to try to keep it updated" charade. I may write in this tomorrow I may forget it exsist again. Who knows. But anyway. My life in a nut shell. If you didn't know yet, hubby and I moved from hawaii to Kentucky woot! (not!) jk its not that bad. Closer to home so that's really good.. But where is home to me anyway if you want to get technical? Indiana? I don't know.. I have no ties there besides friends really.. And I have friends all over the u.s. So that doesn't really count. Hawaii? Maybe. The beach is definitely for me. Or maybe home for me was always where my parents were, in that case home is ohio now. I bet my parents hate living there. Especially my mom. Pa? Definately not. That state will never be home to me even tho the majority of my fam is from there/still live there. Too much bouncing around...its easy to lose track of yourself in all of that. So I guess Kentucky is "home" now, as much as it ever will be anyway. What about wisconsin? No.. That's joshs 'home' . Well anyway I've been thinking about how the only major accomplishments since high school were popping out two babies (don't get me wrong those are the two biggest events and have changed my life) but everyone I know is in college and working toward some goal. What is wrong with me? I always had so many goals.. I wanted to be a teacher, a cop, join the military, try out the peace corps, nurse, hair dresser, interior designer, hell.. A fashion designer.. I could go on. Now I'm a 21 going on 22 year old housewife. Don't get me wrong I LOVE my children with my entire being but I need to DO something w my life. In the past month I've had two people refer to me as conventional wtf is that?! I never used to be conventional. But then again is it really that bad of a thing? Maybe this is what I really wanted all along? Idk. Anyway, this turn your clocks back thing is screwing me up. I'm way too tired for it not even being midnight yet! I should get some sleep.. Ill write more later? Meh maybe not we shall see. Love love

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