Adages (google it)
I have the worst timing EVER.
I get in these weird ass situations.
I know what the safer choice in my life would be right now. But do I want safe? Sometimes I get so lost in what sounds right and what is a sure thing that I forget about the being happy part. But trying to be happy lately has only left myself in the worst situations and left me to feel like it was all my fault. I want someone who can hang out with my friends, and I can hang out with theirs. How hard is that? I can't deal with drama anymore. High school is over.
I had an interesting phone conversation tonight. And even if it was all bullshit. It helps a lot. I needed to hear it. Sometimes I think I miss him too. I think of all the short lived times that he made me smile. But then I think of how quickly those smiles were erased with empty blank stares and countless nights of one way texts. And how many times the word crazy came out of his mouth in a negitive way. They say what wont kill you will make you stronger. I couldn't agree more. I think about all the times I wished you would call and say exactly what you said to me tonight. But I think you waited a little too long. I don't think you miss me at all. I think you miss someone. Just anyone. It's funny how time changes things and people. It's funny how things/people can turn shit around on you like you're the bad person.
It's funny because Leah and I live by "signs"
It was the reason we didn't go to the bowling alley tonight.
But then why did your song happen to be the next song to play on my ipod?
1500 songs. On shuffle. And yours was next.
I know I making the right choice for myself. Right?
I believe in 2nd chances. But 3 times?
I think cupid has purposly turned his back to me. He doesn't want me to be happy and in love. He wants me to be safe. Maybe I need safe and security. Why can't I have it all? Because well, you can't have your cake and eat it too.
I guess my life is lived by overused adages.
Well I say tonight fuck what everyone has proved to be right.
Stick your credited adages down your throat and choke.
I can't live like this.
I get in these weird ass situations.
I know what the safer choice in my life would be right now. But do I want safe? Sometimes I get so lost in what sounds right and what is a sure thing that I forget about the being happy part. But trying to be happy lately has only left myself in the worst situations and left me to feel like it was all my fault. I want someone who can hang out with my friends, and I can hang out with theirs. How hard is that? I can't deal with drama anymore. High school is over.
I had an interesting phone conversation tonight. And even if it was all bullshit. It helps a lot. I needed to hear it. Sometimes I think I miss him too. I think of all the short lived times that he made me smile. But then I think of how quickly those smiles were erased with empty blank stares and countless nights of one way texts. And how many times the word crazy came out of his mouth in a negitive way. They say what wont kill you will make you stronger. I couldn't agree more. I think about all the times I wished you would call and say exactly what you said to me tonight. But I think you waited a little too long. I don't think you miss me at all. I think you miss someone. Just anyone. It's funny how time changes things and people. It's funny how things/people can turn shit around on you like you're the bad person.
It's funny because Leah and I live by "signs"
It was the reason we didn't go to the bowling alley tonight.
But then why did your song happen to be the next song to play on my ipod?
1500 songs. On shuffle. And yours was next.
I know I making the right choice for myself. Right?
I believe in 2nd chances. But 3 times?
I think cupid has purposly turned his back to me. He doesn't want me to be happy and in love. He wants me to be safe. Maybe I need safe and security. Why can't I have it all? Because well, you can't have your cake and eat it too.
I guess my life is lived by overused adages.
Well I say tonight fuck what everyone has proved to be right.
Stick your credited adages down your throat and choke.
I can't live like this.