fucking hate you.
I hate that people don't take me seriously.
I hate that people think I'm immature.
I hate that people judge me without knowing me. Or why I do the things I do.
I just hate people pretty much.
No. That isn't true.
Because still. I would be there for anyone of those fucks if something was wrong.
Or if no one was there to help.
I can't. not be there. And it sucks.
Tonight, I didn't feel like drinking.
Last night I turned to it out of anger.
And it fucked me up more.
I know I'm better than that.
I love kayleigh. Tonight I learned how much she has grown as a person.
And I can tell I'm rubbing off on her. You should have heard the things she said.
I was proud. But I'm going to sleep. Kayleigh is finally sleeping. Long Night.
I can still say. I miss you.
P.S. I'm glade LeWis is home.
-Edit-
I LOVED singing old Fall Out Boy songs in the car with Kayleigh and Leah. It felt like 2 summers ago.
I loved laughing at the gas station for too long because we couldn't get gas.
I loved how everyone stared when I had to turn the car around and backed into the pump.
I loved singing The Starting Line for like an hour in the car.
I loved not drinking for a night. Even tho I was the only sober one.
I love a lot of things that I seem to forget to mention.
I feel like people are complaining too much lately. Including myself.
I'm not saying that I'm done. Because things just took another spin.
But as much as I hate things. There are so many things I wouldn't change.
I felt it. You're not fading.
I felt it. I'm not fading.
I hate that people think I'm immature.
I hate that people judge me without knowing me. Or why I do the things I do.
I just hate people pretty much.
No. That isn't true.
Because still. I would be there for anyone of those fucks if something was wrong.
Or if no one was there to help.
I can't. not be there. And it sucks.
Tonight, I didn't feel like drinking.
Last night I turned to it out of anger.
And it fucked me up more.
I know I'm better than that.
I love kayleigh. Tonight I learned how much she has grown as a person.
And I can tell I'm rubbing off on her. You should have heard the things she said.
I was proud. But I'm going to sleep. Kayleigh is finally sleeping. Long Night.
I can still say. I miss you.
P.S. I'm glade LeWis is home.
-Edit-
I LOVED singing old Fall Out Boy songs in the car with Kayleigh and Leah. It felt like 2 summers ago.
I loved laughing at the gas station for too long because we couldn't get gas.
I loved how everyone stared when I had to turn the car around and backed into the pump.
I loved singing The Starting Line for like an hour in the car.
I loved not drinking for a night. Even tho I was the only sober one.
I love a lot of things that I seem to forget to mention.
I feel like people are complaining too much lately. Including myself.
I'm not saying that I'm done. Because things just took another spin.
But as much as I hate things. There are so many things I wouldn't change.
I felt it. You're not fading.
I felt it. I'm not fading.