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Hey,
thing have been very confusing lately. I got alotta things going on that i don`t know what to do about, like this person that i know that is going through hell and i want so bad to be there for them but i cant. and then theres this person who i think like hates me now cuz i hurt him and i wish it wasnt like that but i dont know what to do nemore, and then theres this guy most people call their dads but mine i don`t feel the need to call that bc he doesn`t meet any of the requirements to be one so he doesnt deserve to be called that and i dont know what to do bc i`m sick of acting like the adult - the stronger one - the person everyone can blame stuff on. I`m nto gunna let himd o this again and make me stand up and act like it`s my responsibility to make him my dad. if he didnt want me he never should of had me. but neways i dont wanna talk about nemore confusing junk or ill get lost lol last ntie spent the nite with steff, went cosmic - kinda sucked cuz we wanted to go to 600 north but oh well - uhh saw garrett there (dork) lol j.k j.k dawg saw jeff n sum other people aw cassie i <3 you neways babe! uhh came back to steffs house got a buncha blankets layed out in her drive way and looked at the stars aw they were so pretty, thought about a lot of stuff, it really reminded me of when i sat and looked at the sky with sumone and it was breathtaking only this time that person wasnt there beside me to share it... sigh... i`m so confused these days. i love you guys <333333
Cal`il`er
thing have been very confusing lately. I got alotta things going on that i don`t know what to do about, like this person that i know that is going through hell and i want so bad to be there for them but i cant. and then theres this person who i think like hates me now cuz i hurt him and i wish it wasnt like that but i dont know what to do nemore, and then theres this guy most people call their dads but mine i don`t feel the need to call that bc he doesn`t meet any of the requirements to be one so he doesnt deserve to be called that and i dont know what to do bc i`m sick of acting like the adult - the stronger one - the person everyone can blame stuff on. I`m nto gunna let himd o this again and make me stand up and act like it`s my responsibility to make him my dad. if he didnt want me he never should of had me. but neways i dont wanna talk about nemore confusing junk or ill get lost lol last ntie spent the nite with steff, went cosmic - kinda sucked cuz we wanted to go to 600 north but oh well - uhh saw garrett there (dork) lol j.k j.k dawg saw jeff n sum other people aw cassie i <3 you neways babe! uhh came back to steffs house got a buncha blankets layed out in her drive way and looked at the stars aw they were so pretty, thought about a lot of stuff, it really reminded me of when i sat and looked at the sky with sumone and it was breathtaking only this time that person wasnt there beside me to share it... sigh... i`m so confused these days. i love you guys <333333
Cal`il`er