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end of everything. actually happened quicker than expected.
i dont know what to say. im lost. losing you its like losing happiness we had. ive never expected it. because the time you sent me that message to ask me to love you, and you need it from me as well, i told myself i will love you and gonna build back everything we lost last year..in just 2days, we came to end.
tomrrow marks 20th month with you. i dont know how to ignore that. ive always remember every month we have. i dont know i should be happy or sad, happy because you will be happier and better without me. or me losing someone important to me.
these times with you were amazing despite lots and lots of downtimes we had. im surprised how i still love the happy and sad times. it meant everything to me since the day we got together. youve made it worthwhile for everything.
times i made it tough for you and times you made it tough for me. i just couldnt swallow this down. being with you, its not a habit. but. being with you i am comfortable with. that i can enjoy doing things, make me feel im with the correct person. i dont know your sentiments towards this.
but im sure it wasnt a mistake to be with you. its a tough learning journey. but dearly, if only things didnt ended up this ugly. but well! things happened and i have to face it.
i just need ice and a big pillow.
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