I dont wanna loose this
21-22 May 04
you how you get that wonderful feeling and you’ll do anything to ensure that it never leaves. What if you had no power to do so? I got this feeling tonight that reminded me of when I was left alone with no help, where no one would stand by my side and try to comfort me. There is no comfort for me right now, not being able to understand why im not shunning him is incomprehensible at this point. What is so different about him? When I look at him, when his hand touches mine and how play fighting gives me the biggest smile ever. Its been 2 years since I have smiled this much. No one has made me smile this much ever day in a row, even if it is the worst day ever. I don’t understand why im crying right now it makes no sence. Im so happy yet knowing that life isn’t fair just makes me sick, why is it me that has to always suffer the worst pain possible?? I don’t think anyone will ever be able to answer that, ever….
he kicked a chair at jimmy that hit me, and for some reason i didnt get mad at all. for some reason i smiled more and more everytime i saw him.
i dont wanna loose him to her, its not fair. really its not.
you how you get that wonderful feeling and you’ll do anything to ensure that it never leaves. What if you had no power to do so? I got this feeling tonight that reminded me of when I was left alone with no help, where no one would stand by my side and try to comfort me. There is no comfort for me right now, not being able to understand why im not shunning him is incomprehensible at this point. What is so different about him? When I look at him, when his hand touches mine and how play fighting gives me the biggest smile ever. Its been 2 years since I have smiled this much. No one has made me smile this much ever day in a row, even if it is the worst day ever. I don’t understand why im crying right now it makes no sence. Im so happy yet knowing that life isn’t fair just makes me sick, why is it me that has to always suffer the worst pain possible?? I don’t think anyone will ever be able to answer that, ever….
he kicked a chair at jimmy that hit me, and for some reason i didnt get mad at all. for some reason i smiled more and more everytime i saw him.
i dont wanna loose him to her, its not fair. really its not.