I hate my life!
I absolutely hate life! Nothing possibly goes right ever!!
hmm first Id like to say I honestly hate people who complain about things when they are the one that put thereselves in those situations! If you complain how much you hate something and how much it hurts you why would you go through the trouble of keeping it in your life? I swear I honestly am aggravated with everything and people just seriously drive me crazy to the extreme!
So ya I dont hang out with like any of my friends anymore.. Some I think Im just good enough to be there friends in school but outside school there just way too good for me and then others are just always to busy.. I mean yea I dance and cheerlead alot.. But I still make time for my friends.. Some people do absolutely nothing but then barely ever find time to do things? I wish I had all the time in the world to do what I wanted but I dont and still make more of an effort to hang out with my friends then they do!
I wish I lived near like Jen and all them.. I can tell them everything and they actually listen...they care.. But of course like everything else in my life.. the people I know actually care about me live forever away and I never have anyway of hanging out with them besides school!
I miss so many people .. I wish my life was the way it use to be! I hate being alone and I hate being miserable! I know I always say I dont want to be in a relationship which is absolutely true.. But I rather have someone to just be with when Im lonely.. I swear I mess everything up and push everyone out of my life! I honestly dont deserve anything better in my life but I wish something good would happen for a change!
I wish I was just happy again.. Not the way it is now where I pretend to be happy and just put a smile on my face and hide my feelings.. I dont tell anyone anything I just let everything get filled up inside of me! I hate not having someone to go to and have them listen to me.. Im always listening to everyone elses problems but as soon as I have something to talk about it seems like they always have to go or it just seems like they dont care at all..
I absolutely hate boys! I swear any boy I thought was half way decent and thought maybe I could have friendships with turn out to be so different! Like yes I know Im hard to get along with.. I know I dont open up very easily to people.. But I hate getting hurt.. So many times before I trusted people and it always blew up in my face.. I just hate that people feel there never wrong! I know Im not perfect but at least I admit when I do something wrong! I seriously just want to get so far away from this place.. I want to go somewhere where I can just start over and meet new people...
I dont know life basically just sucks!
Omg and to make things worse.. Nick and Jessica are breaking up?? I swear if they cant last then theres no hope for love at all.. Life as I know it would be completely over and I absolutely would never believe for a second my life would get better!
So anyways today had a football game.. we won 24 to 14 which is always good.. it was alot of fun.. Ah I hurt my wrist so much more trying to mount with an already hurt wrist...hopefully it gets better by tuesday because i have dance.. hmm lindsay and brian came over today ha thats always fun we went to apple bees too funny.. and i think tomorrow ill proally hang out with mal or something.. oh well I dont feel good and I not in a very happy mood.. talk to yous all later!
love me<3*