A Nobody
I sit here in a trance, dead to all who surround me, creating an address for my loneliness...it lives inside me, bleeding from my eyes like bloody waterfalls, tearing my skin as I wipe it away...I hide from my emotions, erasing them as some may say...but I hide behind my smile, pretending to be happy...but nothing it cured in my mind, making day seem like night...the fear is what waits for me in the dark shadows, as they move, they whisper my name, calling for me...but when I don't listen to them, they hurt me by making me hurt myself...but when I see you, you make me want to heal myself, but when you're gone, and your face fades into my sleepy thoughts, as the night grows colder and darker...they overpower me, and the pain runs down my wrist...and the hateful thoughts rush through my mind, *nobody needs me, I'm worthless to my family and friends...they'd all do better without me alive, one more cut deep enough, then they'll al be happy...* but then I think about you, and you're such a good friend, but I know I'm not...all the rumors say so, and I can't help but believe them...I'm broken without the tools that can fix me...if only I can look in the mirror and see who I want to see, I act strong, but below the surface, I'm as tender and weak as fire is to water...can I be healed? No, nothing can come close to what happiness makes...there is no cure for my life threatening thoughts and hatred towards myself...
But there's one thing stopping me from killing myself............
The hidden strength that lies within my shattered soul...so I'll die before I fall.